I Left Home For 11 Years

Salam alaik people. Hello blog!

Well, I am currently back in home sweetest home in Malaysia. Alhamdulillah *insert widest grin ever!

The happiest feeling I must say. Because well, at last I got to be home and be stress-free for maybe 6 months minimum HAHA. I know thats so confident of me to say 'stress-free'. Anyhoo, when I think about it again, I really have made my home a touch-N-go place for the last 11 years, since I went to boarding school at 13. So by all rights, I deserve this stress-free 6 months hihi. Self-acclaimed.

So, what did I do at home?

Hmm, honestly at first I did nothing!

Then, I realized I havent done any proper housechores for the last 11 years. I did it just when I want or my mom asked me. So, off I went downstairs, grabbed a sweep and turn into a domestic goddess. Nope! Well, I started off by just helping my mom. Doing whatever she's doing. Cooking and laundry. Asking why like this, why cant I do it like this, isnt it better this way? Really someone should put a tape over my lips! HAHA.

Well, I've got to say, I salute my mother so much for being so awesome and patient. Also the rest of mothers worldwide. Really, how did they do it? Taking care of children and making up the home is sooooooooooo tiresome! You should see the mountain of clothes especially when my brothers came home. Oh God, I feel like burying myself below the bed! As tiresome I felt, I am still far from my mother's par. She could continue gardening in the evening after all the pergi pasar, kemas peti sejuk, siang ikan ayam sotong etc, masak and laundry! Phew, long way to go tiqah sahmah haha! Anyway, my mom's answer is so simple. She said "Your time will come." Thats so deep, man, I can feel my hairs shiver a bit. Luls.

But yeah, thats the challenge for mothers. That is the reason why mothers are so dignified in Islam. For the vital role they play in nurturing the generations, well they we deserved to be! *smug face haha.

Aside from brushing up my domestic goddess skills, I also spend money time on books. Plenty of books! Those I missed reading because of the so called busy life while studying. Hihi, I am so into Roza Roslan's books these days. She is the wife of Prof Kamil Ibrahim, the author of Travelog Haji; Mengubah Sempadan Iman. She writes mostly about her life, her experience with very enlightening values she learned along the way. So yeah, I hope I could finish all these piling books before housemanship starts.

Last 4 days, I just came back from Kedah and Perlis vacaycay! It was so awesome with these girls; Husna Z, Iman and Mira. TripKampungGirls what we call ourselves. I got to see paddy fields (Kg Tok Keling) up close for the first time. Walking between petak sawah (with white trousers, what a genius tiqah sahmah -_-) witnessing a big black mouse scurrying into a hole (terperanjat iolls), having a taste of kerabu pucuk paku by Husna's Tok. Meeting old friends and new kind people, visiting Malaysia lovely tourist spots, Gua Kelam and Padang Besar (like I'm not Malaysian hehe). Husna is a goooood driver, like seriously, I am so inspired. I think I could drive instantly! But nope, when I got home, I am still that tiqah sahmah who got the car keys out just to heat the engine HAHAHAHA I'm so pathetic I know, lol whatever! ^_^")

Hmm I wish I could tell everything here, but no, I dont want to. My head is thinking and wondering and doubting myself. Since last month. *insert Celine Dion's At Seventeen song in background, so much love for this woman's music. Mostly about myself. About getting on the next phase of life. Working and committing. Phew, it sounds so adulthood. (LOL, how old do you think you are again, tiqah sahmah?) So many commitments isnt it? Well, being human is a responsibility itself. So yeah, do whatever it takes to get you to your final abode in Jannah.

Fighting!! :)

Pls pray for me, okay. #doakanyangbaikbaikje . Lol, thats the hashtag we came up with during travelling with TripKampungGirls. :)

Try count how many LOL and HAHA in this post. I think I am easily amused these days haha. See?

Ok, till then.

Sesak

Salam 'alaik.

Huhu, semalam semua orang kecoh dengan meeting with kpt tu kan. Well, I didn't go anyway cause I had too much travelling already and I tak rela nak tambah another miles. Kalau miles tu boleh exchange dengan trip keliling dunia selama seminggu takpe jugak. ;)

Basically, dia just bagi alternative untuk further study. Its either you wanna proceed in Egypt or local. But tu la, kalau nak credit transfer dia akan compare dulu syllabus kita ngan dia, buat mapping (taktahu nak peta kan apebenda but this was the word my friends keep on using so whatever) and of course isi borang and tunggu. Yeah tunggu lagi for some period then baru dapat kata putus from the IPT and in which year you gonna be put (most likely preclinical), while some of your friends in Egypt already wear their white coat and do rounds. Or so.

Personally, I'd love to just continue in Alex. I mean, I already have a vision of me in that graduation robe and hat since the first day I stepped into the university, so why dont we just end everything there and back for good? That is what I really think and want. But tu lah. Kenapalah mesirian ni ngok sangat gi jatuhkan dr.m dulu. You jeopardize our future la ngok! (Emo ni emo haaa). Ah pakcik internet sebelah rumah tu pun tak suka dr.m memang nyampah ar tengok. Before balik haritu aku gi bayar duit internet pun nak taknak je bayar bila nampak bendera 'Irhal ......' atas meja dia. Yeah right, genius!

Ok whatever. Sebenarnya tak habis geram lagi tau. Geram sampai rasa malas nak balik sana jumpa balik orang-orang ngok yang telah menjual darah saudara sendiri sebab sikap tak sabar, tamak, pendengki dan ngok diorang tu. (Haha emo lagi). Tapi tipu ar kalau kata taknak belajar kat Msia, sape taknak duduk dekat ngn mak ayah kan. Plus fed up ngan mesirian lagi. Tapi bila tengok kena turun tahun tu buat rasa "errrr terima kasih je la."

I've been (we) through countless malam yg tak serupa malam (sleepless) baca buku dengan jantung berdegup laju mcm bullet train berdebar-debar draining all reserve of adrenaline (kesian jantung kita) semata-mata nak pass semua modules dengan cemerlang, only to repeat them ke? Haiyaaa. I know bagus sebab belajar dua kali lagi ingat, maybe boleh jadi top student (?) tapi.... "errr, terima kasih".

I seriously don't wanna go into that cycle again just as much as I dont want to go through ujian JPJ lagi. Penat tahu.

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Exhale.

Anyway.

Since I'm studying using rakyat's money, then I'm obliged to abide by the decision la kan. Kita tengok apa mara kata. Kalau dah takdir (huaaa pasrah) kena repeat year in Msia, what to do.

Tapi....... aku rasa kitorang akan balik Mesir jugak la. Well, tengok je ar dulu. Hish suspen pulak rasanya haha.

Alrite, there goes the rambling for today. Till then. :)

Wassalam.

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Movie Review : 8 Jam

Salam.

I'm gonna make a movie review malam ni. Sebab aku baru lepas tengok satu movie. Wehehe. Ok tapi jangan expect aku cerita pasal plot, lighting, acting quality bla bla bla you know those stuff sebab aku nak cerita pasal pengajaran yang aku dapat dari cerita ni. I know I sound skema skema ubi sikit tapi takpe, this is how I roll hehe.

Movie title: 8 Jam
Genre: Action.

Filem ni revolves around a guy named Alang (Shaheizy Sam), dia ni banduan yang dijatuhkan hukuman mati mandatori sebab dia sudah bunuh sama satu orang. Makwe dia precisely (mesti korang pelik apsal dia bunuh makwe sendiri kan tapi takpe kita kupas kendian). And dia ada lagi 8 jam before the hukuman. So dalam masa 8 jam tu we'll see flashbacks of his life.

"Alang ni budak yang dibesarkan dalam suasana yang sangat tak kondusif untuk tumbesaran mental; kawasan lorong sempit sarang gangster. Mak dia kerja kat pasar, setiap bulan ada gangster mintak duit perlindungan. Mak dia miskin, so Alang resorts to steal food bila dia lapar. Then bila kantoi dia kena pukul la dengan pakcik pakcik ngan mak dia sekali. Mak dia sedar Alang tak patut dibesarkan dalam keadaan berserabut macam ni so mak dia pinjam duit kat Along then nak lari pindah tempat lain untuk mulakan hidup baru dan dalam masa yang sama dia nak lari dari Along tu. Sekali kantoi dengan Along kan, terus mak dia kena bunuh dengan gangster-gangster ni. Yang sadisnya Alang tengok sendiri macam mana mak dia kena bunuh."

So, try imagine.
Ok, imagine.
Imagine mental si Alang ni ha.

Sesetengah orang macam Alang, tak bernasib baik. Membesar dan terdidik dalam suasana yang tak harmoni, disogok dengan keganasan sejak kecil, salah sikit kena lepuk, terpaksa tengok mak dia mati depan mata. Mental dia dicorakkan dengan benda-benda macam ni sejak kecil, so bila dah besar, dia jadi ganas dan macam tak kenal erti kasih sayang sebab mak mati awal tambah pulak status dia sebagai 'budak lorong', semua orang kutuk-kutuk dia masa Alang masuk rumah anak yatim. Tak ada support system kecuali makwe dia yang dia jumpa kat rumah anak yatim tu jugak. Of whom Alang telah bunuh sebab menduakan Alang. Actually bertunang je pun. Tapi being Alang, his mind finds answer only in violence. Semua benda pun kena settle cara ganas. So, yeah.

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Dan sungguhlah memikirkan kisah Alang ni adalah realiti masyarakat kita, buat aku rasa tak tentu hala. Berat nanang. Eceh. No, just macam sedihnya fikir nasib orang macam ni. Diorang ni ada je keliling kita. Cuma kita je tak perasan sebab diorang tak tunjuk. And maybe sebab kita yang tak sensitif. Campur sikap individualistik dalam diri masing-masing. Malas nak campur tangan hidup orang lain.

Kita kena sedar, to some extent, we have to interfere jugak. Within limits la kan. Sebab Allah cakap memang kena berpesan-pesan pada kebenaran dan kesabaran. (Surah Al Asr). Let say if one day, kita ditakdirkan berjiran dengan orang yang abuse anak. Takkan nak tengok je.

Resolusi:

Orang-orang macam ni kita kena reach their heart. Bagi hati dia makanan, jiwa dia kasih sayang, bagi harapan kat dia. Kita semua kena ada kesedaran untuk bantu sesama insan. Indirectly these things akan jadikan kita lebih bersyukur, lebih menghargai.

Kadang-kadang mentaliti diorang tak sama dengan kita. Ada yang rasa dunia sangat kejam dan zalim jadi nak bunuh diri. Ada yang rasa takda harapan langsung kat depan tu. Bingung taktau nak buat apa dengan diri takda dorongan, takde self esteem, rasa apa pun tak boleh.

Kita of course la sejak darjah 6, parents hantar gi ceramah motivasi yang suruh set aim, set future dari sekarang, yang selalu cakap betapa kita adalah insan terpilih dari berjuta-juta sperm (ni serious ada cerita dulu). Alang mana pernah pergi benda talk talk ni semua. Yang dia tahu, lapar, ambik je makanan orang. Tak puas hati, gaduh. Sayang, bawak tinggal satu rumah.

So, kalau kita jumpa orang macam Alang, lets together give them hope. Tunjukkan jalan. Ajar apa yang patut. Paling penting sekali, we have to tell them tujuan hidup kita semua. Dari mana kita datang, untuk apa, dan kemana kita akan pulang akhir nanti. None other the answer to those 3 qs is Allah kan. Personally, aku rasa takde benda yang boleh bagi harapan sehebat Allah. Nak happy ever after, jawapan dia Allah. Bila sedih taktau nak overcome macam mana, Allah is our strength. Pergantungan hidup kita hanya pada Allah. Bukan pada boss kita. Bukan pada our parents. Bukan pada pakwe makwe.Tapi kita pun janganlah lupa berusaha. Allah tak zalim, Allah Maha Adil, kita akan diberi sesuai dengan usaha dan yang terbaik bagi kita pada masa tu. InshaAllah, redhalah dan bersangka baiklah. (Huhu I am ketakutan membaca kata-kata sendiri).

Ada la haritu aku baca novel Fatimah Syarha kan, dia kata didikan Islam kepada penganutnya sangat hebat sampai mampu mengubah personaliti seseorang jadi terlalu unggul even psychologist Barat pun tak mampu nak bagi reason kenapa dan macam mana. Diorang tak mampu nak buat teori pun. Yelah, pening diorang fikirkan macam mana didikan Islam tu mampu buat Saidina Umar yang sebelum Islamnya bencinya pada Nabi sampai nak bunuh Nabi tiba-tiba boleh jadi orang yang paling sayang sekali kat Nabi, macam mana didikan Islam tu boleh buat Abdul Rahman bin Auf sanggup infaqkan harta dia bukan takat singgit dua hinggit (kalau kita tak mampu takpela) tapi banyaknya harta yang diinfaqkan sampaikan derapan langkah unta-unta yang mengangkut harta beliau mampu menggegarkan tanah! Dan jugak macam mana didikan Islam ni mampu buat pengikut dia tak takut mati malah merinduinya. MashaAllah, aku yang mentaip ni yang malu sendiri. Huhu. Hebat kan orang Islam zaman dulu, hasil didikan Nabi, murabbi agung kita. :')

Kita orang Islam tak diajar untuk hidup sendiri-sendiri tanpa kisahkan kawan yang lain. Kita diajar bahawasanya kita bersaudara. Cubit peha kanan, peha kiri terasa juga. Kita taknak masuk syurga sorang-sorang. Kita taknak ditahan oleh orang lain saat tinggal selangkah lagi nak masuk syurga.

Usaha kita yang Allah kira, bukan natijah.
Sebab Allah tahu natijah hanya Dia yang kuasa.

Jadi, berusahalah hingga ke titik akhir hidupmu! Huhu.

Dan, jadikanlah Islam teras hidupmu. Apapun yang terjadi carilah Allah.

Wassalam. :)

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#3 SLR; Its Hard to Concentrate

Salam.

Its hard to focus in study in the midst of everything going on here in Egypt. Its a turmoil. A real war against Al Haq. It saddens me to see how our own brothers would not back our holy religion but stay behind the secularist. Hadn't they heard that Islam is the way of life? Islam is something so holistic; just look at how much of the land was governed by the caliphate empires years ago? Almost two third of the world was once under the caliphates who were like us, Muslim. They did followed Syariah laws, and what's so wrong about exercising it, you don't want to give it a chance? (Though you aren't supposed to give it a chance, you should oblige by them once you said the syahadah). Instead you want to separate country matters from religion. You have been given the chance, yet you just rub it off. You just brace yourself when Allah ask you in the afterlife, ok.

They don't understand Islam. Simply that. When you don't understand something, you tend to spread only lies and ends up confusing and inciting a lot more innocent mind to hate us. There are thousands in this world who got the wrong message of Islam, who misunderstand its teaching and its believers.

Ya Allah. It really saddens me to the core. I don't have any power right now. I don't even deserve to hold any. But one thing I know, all of you and I, we, we have the power of dua (prayer and hope), blessed by our Most Loving Allah upon us. Lets pray for Islam, be sure and have pure faith in this arduous yet beautiful path. He hears our cry even when you call upon him in the deepest pit of the earth.

Try to soak your heart in this beautiful and calming verse from holy Quran:

''And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided. '' 

Al Baqarah, verse 186. 

Ps: Muslims don't hate other religions, we accept and respect your belief. We are all humans in this world, no one is supreme than any others (though many wish they are). We are all the same, just that we have different belief and view. And we should all celebrate the difference.

I watched a video just now, about the real story lies behind this tumbling coalition happening in Egypt now. A video that really opens my eyes and heart on who's the braver one, who are the one deserved to be supported. Just send me a private message to watch the video, I'll copy the link for you.

So till then. Time is running out. I might not be able to interfere in this matter physically, but know that my mental and intellectual could be useful somehow to combat corrupted minds and soul out there, inshaAllah. May Allah bless all of us and stay safe. And yeah, do prepare for this upcoming Ramadhan, set your intention straight, lets all put a goal to be better Muslim at the end of this course, inshaAllah. :)

Till then, Wassalam.

#1 Egypt oh Egypt

Salam 'alaik.

So, as most of you have known, Dr Morsi has been overthrown by a military coup yesterday. Its quite devastating to know that since I like him so much. You might ask what makes me to like him since I'm not even an eyelid close to be an Egyptian.

Nothing. Simply because I find him to have good and wise character of a leader. He is the first Egypt President, elected by the people themselves, who radiates very good Islamic examples, whose heart is brighten up by the holy verses of Quran he memorizes, the first President who refuse to stay in the palace and stay in his own house instead, he has a loyal, modest and fully covered First Lady who herself wished to be called First Servant instead. Can't you see? He holds a PhD in Engineering from US somemore. He is very well educated. And during his reign, he bravely cut down relations with Syria to show his disapproval of massive killing happening there done by the treacherous Assad government. Dr. Morsi also allowed the gate in Rafah border which leads to Palestine to be opened again after years of closing during Mubarak days.

But those were the days.

Immediately after Dr. Morsi was overthrown, the official channel of Muslim Brotherhoods (a party Dr. Morsi was once in) and few others had been closed down and some of the staff had been detained. So much of their (Egypt) freedom of speech. From what I know, during Dr. Morsi's day he has never denied any channels rights to be broadcasted eventhough some of them were badmouthing him days in days out. That's a very bold and steadfast leader you have, Egyptian! Then we also see a few of MB leaders had also been arrested and the border to Palestine was closed again. (I am utterly upset by this one).

*deep breath*

Haih. I don't know what more to say to these people of Egypt. They are all my families too due to our belief in the same god. But I couldn't find the answer to their hatred towards their legitimate president nor can I bring myself to believe what my ears heard the night of that tragic military coup. They were insanely celebrating the coup as if Dr. Morsi was a torturous dictator, someone who arranged the frequent blackout, the increment in groceries price and petrol price. I bet some of them thought of him that way, but come one guys. It has been only one year, why were you so eager and excited to see the changes? Rome isn't build in a day you know. Everything needs its time, you gotta be working very hard to improve something. Alas, you don't even change your attitude of littering around like its your mother's street yet you want Dr. Morsi to clean up those mess and change it to a garden of roses? As if you were asking someone else to clean up the toilet after you had used it. I don't know if that's the norm over here since you've been under Mubarak's teaching for far too long. I really don't know if that's what your people taught you.

Haih, I seriously lost hope in you guys. This morning, when I was out to sit for the exams, I couldn't see you the same way before. All I saw were just some people who are self centered, narrow minded and undercivilized. Yes you have many pious persons here, yes you have a lot of brilliant professors here but sadly yes, you also have a lot more corrupted leaders here and yes you have far too high rate of heart blinded people who can't see kindness in others, who has zero empathy to our brothers and sisters in Syria and Palestine, who are so selfish I wonder how you would get up again. Only Allah will help you if He wills.

But. As I was typing this and complaining over you, Egyptian, inshaAllah I will never forget to put you in my dua everyday. Apart from being the place where I study Medicine and Life subject, it is also a very special place indeed. I know Egypt would never be as pretty and romantic as Venice is or as Paris is, but on this very land, Allah has shown numerous signs of His existence. The only place Allah has shown himself to Prophet Musa 'alaihi salam, the place where He brought down 'al manna wa as salwa' food from heaven and many more. The stones and dust of this land has bore witness of the tears and sweat of Musa and Yusuf 'alaihuma as-salam during their days of preaching Islam. T_T Plus, Masr is one of the regions on this world that has been quoted in our holy Quran. That is an honour from Allah, dear Egyptian. Why can't you see it the same way we see it? You should be extra pious than us, extra vigilant than us because you understand the Quran way better than us do. Wake up Egyptian!

I pray for better Egyptian and a better Egypt. I strongly believe that a country strength relies on its great human resource. Not simply the typical common man on the streets; the one who violently shouts and screams whenever he is mad, but a man who always rationalize, has a good logic, has a pure heart and strong intention and close with his god, Allah. May we be that kind of resource for this ummah.

May Allah bless Egypt now and forever. Amin. :')

"Ya Allah, grant your mercy to those who had died while spreading Your cause, grant them martyrdom ya Allah. Grant us the one who are still left in this dunya, a pure heart to solely work for You, to bring up Your religion. Put us among the ones who give contributions to Your deen, cleanse our heart from fasad and dunya, pour in bravery and steadfastness as You had done to Your messengers before us. We sincerely want to be a part of the Solihin ya Allah, Amin. :')"

Ps: for further reading, feel free to browse Al Jazeera Egypt. 

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Talking about our future.

Salam 'alaik.

Believe it or not, I had just done watching video. Political videos precisely.

Oh my goodness.

What with the curse words all around? I doubt our dearest Prophet Muhammad ever said just one bad word to the other side. Hmmmm.

Or has cursing become the new synonym of politic? Duhh

Both sides are the same, really. Should really watch our tongue yaw. Everytime. Your choice of words reflect your own self.

Was just watching and observing. For now, I judge from their language.

This year I would be voting if I were born earlier in January. Sadly, I am a November baby, so yeah 2018 will be my first time voting (I would be an MO by that year). Just thinking of it gives me goosebumps. Duhhh. (26 years old had once seems so far away you know).

So, to all voters out there, choose the right one. The one who could not only develop the country but benefit ALL the people as well. Who could provide a better future for the next generation and nurture them to be a holistic generation. Who are 'filled' inside and outside. For I believe the inner strength of oneself is more powerful and it's the core of an individual. If the core is well, it will radiates only goodness and proven by the outer self. In sha Allah.

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Today, I finished my last professional skills exam for preclinical. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. :) Now the study leave for GIT shall start. And I shall be burying my head deep inside the book. No, books. Like bookssssssss and yeah you got it, right.

''Life is when Allah decides to bless you with a chance to enter His jannah.''

 paraphrased from Hilal Asyraf.

K, toodles. :)
Ma'a salaamah.

Dah habis dahhh yay!

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! Alhamdulillah......

Alhamdulillahhhh......

Heheheh bakpe la suka sangat ni kan...

Minggu lepas adalah minggu yg super panjang dan hectic. Memang aktif mektif muscle dlm badan. Ke sana ke sini membawa diri. Mencabar emosi dan sanubari. Ha ape lagi. Tapi best la. Sebab rasa sungguh produktif hehehe.

Assignment final 
Assignment arab
Exam arab
Cairo 2 kaliiiii 
Talkssss

Ya Allah... Kita ni cakap je banyak buat kerja, banyak pergi talks macam ye ye sangat kan. Hakikatnya, adakah benar hati kita betul-betul terkesan dgn semua input yg kita dapat tu? Erkkk terketuk di situ. I hope so. And will try my best to do so, in sha Allah.

Exam is coming dlm beberapa minggu lagi. Dengar macam lama kan, hakikatnya memang sangat banyak sekali paling lah notes nak baca. Dah tahap super saiya mega dah ni. Harap harap aku boleh buat yg terbaik la sebab ni last sem pre clinical pun. Tak pernah dapat straight A lagi. So aku berazam utk dapatkan yg Terrrbaik utk last sem ni. In sha Allah.... :) agak agak nampak aku bersukaria sangat tu kan, mintak tolong bagi ayat sedas dua sikit kat aku keh, bagi sedar. XD

Anyhoots, nak citer haritu kan, nak dijadikan cerita, aku terkunci dlm toilet. Haha this was super funny okay, serius tak tipu. I was like 'why me why me out of them?'. Redha aje la, seb baik takda claustrophobia kan. Ada la dlm 10-15 minit duduk tunggu hero datang selamatkan. Last last, Nadhirah gak yg berjaya bukak kunci dari luar. Guna pisau okey. Camne?? Ha tu kena tanya dia. Tapi serious la, rasa terharu sangat. Tingkayu Nadhirah!! And 'termuhasarawak' sangat. Sebab emmm sebab that morning ada la rasa yg tak best sikit kat certain certain orang. Jahat je kan. Hahaha, maybe sbb tu kot terkunci dlm toilet. Tapi takpe, pengalaman tau. (mak kita pun tak pernah kurung kita dlm toilet). And lepas ni, please husnu zhon ok and accept orang seadanya dia. Kita pun takde la baik mane kan kan :)

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Lets get prepared for the upcoming weeks! Subuh dah makin awal skang ni. Aiyooo dia punye mujahadah tu....... Semangat semangat!!! Laki laki yang claim konon tough tu, ce tengok dia tough tak lawan syaitonirrajim,,, Haaaa. And wanita-wanita yang claim konon nak jadi sebaik Khadijah dan Aisyah, ce tengok dia berjaya tak lipat selimut every morning before gi kelas.... (sebab kalau lambat bangun kan confirm terjun katil, mandi terus gi kelas kan haha err tu siapa tu?) XD

Takpe la, sama-sama buat yg terbaik okeh. Bukan untuk orang lain. Untuk diri kita jugak kan. :)

p/s: pedasnya ayat hamba, ampun dipinta andai terasa. Yang sesungguhnya, kepedasannya ditujukan tak lain tak bukan utk diri penulis ni. hewhew sebab 61:2-3 kan. Fehh pedas kalah ayam penyet LA tau. Ha ni budak Alex je tahu. Masya Allah pedas diaaaaaa... nak meletup muka rasa.

Ok ok sedap betul menggoreng keyboard hari ni. Terlebih serotonin ni. Soooo, till then, toodles....

Salam 'alaik. Take care guys. :D

Taraaaa......

Salam 'alaik,

I am uber happy with the new layout. Background pic is taken from Cath Kidston. And yeah you can say I am all hooked up with her designs now. Pretty vibrant coloured  little flowers sure have its own special place in my eyes yo. Thank you Cath Kidston for existing! I sure gonna visit ur boutique when I get my foot in UK. (In sha Allah). 

Anyway, yesterday I attended a concert! You know Opick? The guy with great voice singing Islamic songs. Truth be told, I did knew him before for his unique name, listened to few of his songs but now I'm a fan of him! Seriously if you get time to 'tadabbur' his songs, go ahead. He sure knows how to write and compose his songs well. Also, there was this one nasheed group of Indonesian students performing yesterday. And they were amazing as well. They did their music not by percussions but by their own mouth. Acapella we call it, dont we? It is. The group is called Dai Nada. Go search them on youtube! I recommend you hear 'Satu Harapan' or 'Mali Rabbun Siwah'. Gorgeous! XD 

The concert intended on collecting funds for Palestine. In sha Allah tomorrow they are going to Gaza to meet our families there. May Allah ease their journey, ameen. 

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On Wednesday we finished our midterm exam for GIT module. All I can say is, that was a veghhyyyyy hard paper, almost equivalent to that of CNS. T_T but everyone was saying the same thing though so I could feel a tad relieve maybe? Ye la, to know it wasn't only you who feels the exam was hard, its enough to relax ur head a bit. So go Nurul (and others)! You got another month to revise the remaining part of GIT, break a leg! Or rather, add some power more to your glasses! LOL jangan okeh, my lens is thick enough, thank you. Talking about my rabunness, Im thinking of doing Lasic. You know that laser treatment to correct your sight. Its cheap here in Egypt but they say we've to wait until 24 to do it cause that's when your eyeball stops growing. That's what they say la I dunno what the real thing is. Gotta ask my auntie la for this. Wait when I get back to Malizia. 

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Today. (dont bother to write in chronology haha). 

We had basketball tournament! The game is for girls only and held between sections minus section 5 and 6 la because they are all guys and guys play rugby. Hehehe kidding. I went a tad late cause I got headache attack this morning, might be caused by last night concert super loud sound system. I kid you not, my head almost explode (naudzubillah). By the time the concert was over, I already had the headache and it went thru the night till the morning. 

Even so, I managed to present myself proudly (tetibe haha) at the court to cheer for them. Though my section didnt make it, its a good game really cause my housemates' section came out as champion! Cayalah! My own roomate makes me proud (macam mak-mak banggakan anak) for her numerous goals! Terer ar ko sha, boleh dapat anugerah 'Golden Shooter' (sbb kalau football Golden Boot kan or whatever).  

And my fav players are of course Sha and Fatkhai! Congrats korang! 

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Tomorrow. 

Classes will start again. With lots of things ahead. Final sem for preclinical years. Ngaaaaa. 

I guess, I will stop here. Its been quite a while I haven't write this long. Yeah I have to wait for the mood to come to be able to type continuously and smoothly like today. Wokay, toodlesssss enjoy your days, live your life, carry your responsibilities like a responsible person and whatnots. Bye. 

Wassalam. :D 

Of what actually happen before winter break

Salam 'alaik dear readers. :D

Guess where am I now? Hewhew ok tak comel langsung ketawa macam tu. Anyway, alhamdulillah, I am in Johor Bahru now, at the home sweeeeet home.

I is very the happy one you know. This year punye winter break, diberi kesempatan utk berjalan lebih sikit atas bumi ni, mentadabbur alam, for that Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah. I get to meet many new friends, seniors, juniors and family.

I was in Paris for 6 whole days and then I headed back home. Actually Paris wasn't in my plan pun awalnya. I dah beli tiket to Malaysia on 15th Feb then tiba-tiba university awalkan cuti. Nak awalkan tiket I have to pay like 2000 LE which was quite a sum weih. I macam kenapa sungguh berat ujian yg diberikan Ya Allah (over moi) hehehe. I decided to keluar from Egypt to anywhere I tak kisah asalkan not Egypt. Ended up, ticket to Paris paling murah and ada senior abang (female) kat sane. Aku seolah-olah nampak cahaya di hujung terowong gitu then ke sana lah daku membawa diri.

Dan sesungguhnya aku ni memang lah pelik dan perlukan kelas firm decision making. I dont even understand what was I thinking back then when I decided to go to Paris. Bila dah beli tiket to Paris tiba-tiba rasa menyesal sbb better if aku awalkan je tiket, dapat spend time with bros yg cuti CNY and pergi walimah sedara aku kat Kelantan (Kelantan okay, once in a blue moon je pergi). All this happened masa peri examination. Dahla balik dari Paris sampai Cairo pukul 2.50 pagi on 15th Feb. Balik Malaysia pun 15th Feb gak. Ah sudah takut pulak aku kalau tetibe flight delay kang, ade yg terlepas flight balik Malaysia pulak. Messy sungguh hidup aku waktu tu worrying over something that is yet to happen.

I was in a great stress tau waktu exam tu fikir ni fikir tu, sumpah la rase macam Datuk Seri pikir bussiness kat negara jiran apa aku merepek #%%^&**( hehehe. Jadi bila kita stress kita buat apa? Kakak naqibah kita kata pohonlah pertolongan drpd Yg Maha Pengatur itu.

Jadi........

Alhamdulillah.....

Semuanya turned out great. Malah sangat better dari expectations aku, hilang semua kerisauan dan penyesalan (ewah) seriously terharu sangat. Cantik je Allah aturkan semuanya untuk aku. Maka nikmat Tuhan yg mana lagi hendak aku dustakan? Guys, hands down, honestly, aku sungguh touching mu tahu dok?

Kak JR sangat baik. Seniors kat sana bawak kitorang jalan-jalan. Baik. Memang sangat baik. Banyak aku belajar drpd mereka. Bukanlah nak kata diorang buat kelas mengajar aku duhhh cuma, we could learn something from someone else's action kan. Gitu la.

Bila diorang baik sangat macam tu kan, aku pun rasa, aku nak jadik baik macam tu jugak kat orang lain. Sebab they made me happy by that. So I hope I could be the one making others happy too. Macam cycle of good deeds oh bukankah dunia akn menjadi sebuah tempat yg sgt best bila dipenuhi insan berfikiran sedemikian rupa?

Hei panjangnya aku tulis.

Ok lah, gambar will be updated soon in another entries. Those were such a memory seriously. Sangat best sampai tak tergambar best mcm mana lah Allah prepares utk hamba Dia kat syurga nanti. Huuuu just thinking about it gives me some goosebumps. Excited but no less fearful. Anyway, just strive hard in this life and be the best give the best we could in this life for endless bliss awaiting in hereafter. InsyaAllah.

p/s: Give, we shall be happy.
p/s: Worrying is like rocking a chair. It gives you something to do but never brings you anywhere. Thanks kak JR.
p/s: Want less, you'll feel rich. Nevertheless, dream high, you'll be stronger.

What happen on the 1st Jan of 2013

Salam 'alaik dear readers.

It's already 2013 right. Welcome to adulthood dear me and peers. Haha 21 is big a number, yes. By the way, I got a reminder yesterday while scrolling down the newsfeed in facebook. One of my friends wrote in her status: You are nothing but numbers, with every days passing, so does your numbers left.

Ouch, let's wonder how much numbers  left for us here in this world together.  T_T

Anyway, with the upcoming days ahead of us, that means there is still opportunity for us to be better to benefit and serve others right. So, let's do our best for ummah! :)

On another account, our class schedule isn't as packed as it was in previous modules. Something that shouldn't be taken for granted dear myself (Knock, Knock).

Something happy to wrap my 2012 was:

Finally, after a millenia waiting, at last, our toilet has been repaired. Sooooo much to our relief. And the best part was our house owner agreed to pay for us. 100 LE okay. Haha Alhamdulillah. After all this emotion turmoil going on days in days out. Finally, it's functional! It's like someone stranded on an island getting rescued. XD

And then, we just had our group potluck today. Only with the girls from my lecture group. It was indeed fun like seriously. We eat a lot, talk a lot, giggle a lot. Alhamdulillah on this blessing.

Speaking of blessing and relief, exam is peeking around the corner. Huhhh. Renal physiology is killing me wei. Like no joke. There are lots of longgggg definitions to be understood and memorized. God, help me. InsyaAllah.

I think this should be enought for new year entry. Till then, peeps. Wassalam.

Perasaan kena tipu

Ok, now I am so fed up with my house owner and his brother. When I gave a second thought, they have been conspiring against us all along, They are a bunch of bully demanding piles of money from us, the so called lavish Malizi which is not true. Those are not our money okay.

First about the house rent during last summer break. Supposed when we were not in the house, there shouldn't be any bills coming in, right. But they demanded 100 LE per month at that time. And we gave him.

Then about the lift maintenance. They were collecting money from everyone in the flat including us. It was 1200LE per house at first but after negotiating we got it down until 700LE. And we gave him.

And now for the umpteenth time, they want 400LE pulak for water tank maintenance on the roof. They claimed this time it is once for all time. Like an investment in future. If you pay this thing now, then there will be no water issue for the next 20 years. He did said 20 years, I'm not making it up okay.
And the *&^%%$$ thing is that after the repairing was done, the water in our toilet wouldn't come out from the pipe. Like seriously 20 years?! This is your frigging claimed 20 years?!
Then, we asked them to call the plumber to repair our pipe. We asked him for a month and yes you guess it right, the plumber never came. The house owner's brother told me, the plumber himself didn't show up. He kept repeating bukrah (tomorrow) and ba'din bukrah (After tomorrow) for like thousands times.

And not until yesterday only I was told, actually the house owner is the one who is responsible to pay for all the maintenance fees of his house not the current people residing inside the house! He is the Egyptian, he should know better than us about the house rules! And yet he has eaten up our money. It's not the money I'm concerned most with but, these people, they are muslims, how could they cheat another muslims just like that? Where is that sense of brotherhood in their community? I know brotherhood is easy to instill when you are similar, but with foreign people its hard! But still, Islam teaches us to keep being good to everyone not just with your own frigging buddy. Duhhhh.

Phuh, I think my blood pressure is rocketing up to 90/140 mmHg typing emotionally like this. Haha but this is the fact.

Never. Let. Anyone. In. Your. Family. Study. Here. In. Egypt. 

Unless he doesn't mind dealing with uncivilized people like my house owner and his brother. I'm sorry if there happens to be some english-speaking Egyptian who reads my humble blog but I think that's like an 'impossibrurity', like 0.0001% in probability. I'm not generalizing. It's just most of them are. And dealing with these flocks are the most adventurous, patience-testing, sadistic moment you could possibly face ever in the whole wide world. Like no joke. Seriously.

While most of the Egyptians could raise your blood pressure, there is nevertheless some of them who are still having that good nature inside their heart. Yeah, but I think the ratio is not balanced at all. XD. Maybe I'm saying this because I am currently unstable in terms of emotion.  But I did find and bumped into beautiful examples shown by them now and then. Like for example, the other day, while I was walking through the shops, there was this one ragged old man. He was praying at the narrow pavement of a shop, next to hundreds of busy legs passing by him. The weather was cold and rainy and there he was doing his 'sujud' to the Rabb on a piece of flattened chipsy box. Chipsy is the famous junk food here anyway. I was really touched by the old man. He reminds me to perform 'salat' anywhere, anytime and in any conditions you are in. To take your 'salat' seriously. Cause it is the time to please your God, to show your gratitude to Him for blessing your whole day. T_____T May Allah bless the old man.

Ok. That's all. I know this post is like typed with an overwhelming hatred but I just need to pour it here. I am so gonna move out of this building! You go ask money from the wall and from the lift themselves!

That feeling after you finish your exam.

Salam 'alaik.

Phew, the exam just ended the day before yesterday. I am now sooooo peaceful at mind. Huhu but to tell you the truth, our questions were supersaiya-ly hard like no joke. And to add salts to the wound, our lecturer decided to put out the answers for those questions on our lectures which was held right after exam finished. Now, this is called what may I ask you? Was a tad mad anyway, but it get flown away fast, fortunately. Hehe.

So, yesterday, we'd done the TLK programme. I was one jovial mak nenek yesterday as all my sisters came to join. And from the looks at it, I think they do get what we wanted to tell them all along. InsyaAllah. Hehe only He could describe this feeling inside. Somehow, I find it astonishing how He could put that kind of love inside a human's heart. Y'know to be able to love others is actually a blessing. But to love someone whom you barely know that was another thing. Ohhh I know maybe this is what we call as sweet ukhuwah then. To feel others as our bros and sis as well. Right?

Anyway, may He bless our effort all this while. May we will always be guided on the righteous path, Amin. :)

The riot here got worse yesterday. Even some of us inside the hall, smelled that irritant gas. I think I smelled it too. Or was it some kind of mind trick? My nose did get a bit hurt suddenly though.  They even closed the hall entrance y'know. And the main road was blocked by the police yesterday. Heard arabs shouting outside. FYI, Egypt is currently under pressure again. They are collecting votes for the new constitution here. May the Haq wins here, Aminnnn. :)
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Despite all the things happening here, life still goes on.
And so, off we go to the next module. Urinary System it is.
Till then, Ma'a Salamah.

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Grrrrr of assignment and masalah rumah.

Assalamualaikum.

Hmmm lama aku tak mencurah emosi kat sini. Malam ni aku nak buat perangai. Hihihi.

Ok guys, onyomak, geset, go!!!!~

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Ya Allahhhhh. Aku sangat cuak la kuase doplohpat dah ni. Esok presentation.

Dikala budak-budak lain sedang asyik study utk upcoming exam, aku dan rakan-rakan se-assignment terbongkok-bongkok kat meja study sambil jemari keletak-keletuk menekan papan kekunci. (read: type written assignment). Tapi takpe. Orang kata berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian. Ewah. Hihihihi.

Eh tapi seriously la, dah lama kot tak present depan lecturers. Nervous sangat rasa. Ya Allah tolong lah esok dapat doctor best lagi qurratu 'aini. Heheheh pun boleh kan. XD

Kali ni dapat subjek Microb pasal Viral Infection of Genital System. Aku, precisely dapat tang diagnosis, treatment and prevention & control measures of herpes simplex virus. Tutor kitorang best. Dr. Noha. :D Eventhough cam strict sikit kan, die baru habis PhD kot, tu pasal la mintak assignment kitorang scientific belake. Die suruh amek source dari journal. Masalahnye journal kat internet semuanya kedekut. Asyik kena subscribe je kan. Wiki jugak best dan senang paham. Kan kan kan. Tapi doc awal-awal kata jgn guna wiki. Haha. Kesiang..... Tapi takpe, kite jadikan wiki tu  tempat buat background reading and tempat utk get the idea, get the picture of thingss we gonna do. Ha gituuuu.

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On another account, aku kan eeee geram betul la dgn tuan rumah ni.....punye adik. Seriously la. Haishhhhh tak tau nak kata tang mana lagi dah. Kalau die faham bahasa melayu dah lame dah. Dah lame dah aku brainwash, clorox dan jemur kat Luxor. Haha motif kan cakap macam ni. Tapi eeeeeeeee. Die ni menipu! Cakap haritu nak tengok toilet rumah kitorang (ada problem sikit). Masa aku ajak naik sekali, die tengah tengok tv. Die kate 'nanti, nanti'. Dahtu, sampai ke sudah tak naik. Ko angin tak macam tu. Aku bukan setakat angin malah taufan Sandy terus! Rosak emosi aku pagi-pagi tau. Pastu bila jumpa balik dia, dia tengah ngeteh dgn abang dia aka the actual owner of our house. Boleh pulak abang dia kata 'Fi eh?'. Nampak sangat dia tak bagitau abang die pasal rumah kitorang ni. Aishhhhhhhh. Aku nak menghukum arab mesir secara general macam tak sampai hati pulak. Tapi memang macam ni la kebanyakannya. Geramnye la hai. Haaaaaaa nak pindah terus ar macam ni. Tapi malas ar nak pindah byk-byk kali. Penat kot. Dah la rumah sekarang ni fadhi. So memang of course banyak benda. Dgn peti ais nya, katilnya, geroboknya. Ahhhh. Tensi aku duduk sini. Memang tak nak lah bagi adik ke anak ke sedare ke belajar sini. No no no. Biarlah aku sorang je yg kene. Hahaha tetibe mcm kelakar kan cakap camni. Tapi hey, it's a fact man. Now I know kenapa abang aku ye ye tak bagi study kat Russia. Mesti sbb something like this jugak.

Oh talk about students overseas kan. Ingat best sangat ke. At least kalau kat Malaysia boleh mintak sedare sedari tolong. Siniii? Kawan ade lah. Tapi semua busy study ape semua, nak mintak tolong pun, segan malah terasa sangat tebal muka utk meminta-minta.

Tapi tu lah. Ini memang mengajar kita utk lebih berdikari. Solve the problems instead of run from it. Face the things, chin up and do what you can do. Kalau tak boleh jugak baru  mintak tolong kan. But really. These things memang perlukan courage and kesabaran yg tinggi. Itulah makin dewasa, makin matang kan. Makin reti. Makin faham. Hehehehe aku rasa tetibe mcm matang kan. Hey even aku nampak macam happy sepanjang masa di dalam ini ada taufan Sandy kau tahu sebab adik tuan rumah itu. Haishhhh. Taknak la cakap pasal dia lagi. Emosi aku. Dia baik je sebenarnye. Tapi buat keje lembap. Oppssss. Sorryyyy (tapi best sangat dapat tulis dlm blog hahahaha). Tolong lah tolong berubah pakcikkkkkk! Pakcik is pakcik. Bukannye Ziyad yg kecik lagi tu. So far as I know, you don't have works. So ape lahhh susahnya utk call kan tukang paip tuuuuu. Hey aku ni tadi kate taknak cerita lagi, then what is this?!

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Mari bukak buku baru.
Disebabkan esok nak present, marilah sama-sama tadah tangan dan doakan kesejahteraann aku dan kawan-kawan dlm menghadapai presentation esok. Aminnnnnn. :D

Dah, puas hati dapat buat terapi jiwa kat sini. Maaf atas kekasaran bahasa jika ada. Kbye.

Wassalam. Good luck to myself! Do your best!  

Never Give Up on Life.

Assalamualaikum, May Allah bless you, dear readers.

It's been quite sometime, I've made a hiatus in blogging. Pardon me, but really I don't have much time lately, maybe because I was the one not managing it really well. :)

Time flies, it sure does. It is already winter here also it is only a week left before my second exam in this semester. And I can't say I've read the books fine, cause despite all the promises and resolutions I made and intended, only a few managed to be kept. So sad.

Anyway, let's not give up okay. Because there's still time, still there is time to improvise everything. Also, let's not give up just yet because there is this someone who has never given up on you throughout your life. Who is this noble guy, let's find it out!

Not long ago, I supposed I've came to think of something very sweet, very obvious yet not many of us realized and grateful enough for it. It goes like this:

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"Have you realized that, when you are reading this post, while I was typing this post, every muscles and neurons in our body, are synergizing and working together for the sake of us? For the sake of us to be able to read, to think. Have you ever thought how your body, every single tiny miny cells composed in your body, has never given up on you? They've been working for us all this while (for twenty consecutive years in my case, never once it switch itself off, or else I might have died long time ago).

Yet, have we ever think what kind of work, beneficial work we've done for ourrselves? For other people? For the religion? Anything in the cause of Allah? Alhamdulillah, if the answer is yes. But, if it's the other one, let's together make a change in ourselves. :)

'They' have done their part. Obediently. Very loyal. Then, what about us? Done anything good yet? Secondly, never give up on life, okay. Cause truth is life has never given up on us.

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Guess, I'll leave you with this, something for us to ponder upon okay? :)

Till we meet again later.

It's Now Repro Turn! (Super Long)

Salam 'alaik dear readers. :)

You might be asking yourself what Repro means by now, aren't you? Hehe, it's nothing but just a short for reproductive system, my happen to be current module.

So, today was the beginning of this module. We were told that we'll be having only 2 hours of lectures without introduction. Was a bit puzzled though but happy at the same time cause yeah, saves my time hehe. But, later in the afternoon someone posted in fb that lectures got extended to 3 hours. Haihhhhh plus the introduction. Ohhhh nevermind, it's not that big a deal, right.

Off we went to the class then. At 2 o'clock in the evening. Though honestly, that grand and eager feeling to start new class already fades blown by the wind. Huhu. Plus, at that time of the day, the university staff have already counting seconds to get home.

Anyway, lectures started as it supposed to, starting with brief intro session by Dr Gehan from physio dept. God, she's so funny and cute too! Kept saying 'DO YOUR BEST' throughout the class. She added that this module is quite difficult and complex. Now, tell me which of our modules are easy. Nil. Furthermore, she also said female repro system makes 50% of the whole module. She said female repro is that complex but not the women themselves (talk about defending her gender, Dr Gehan ftw! haha) which sent the whole class laughing naughtily sheeshh and mammary gland (breast) making another 15% while male repro makes the rest 35%.

First real lecture began with Dr Sayed who teaches Anat,  a very funny guy too. I am so grateful being blessed by awesome lecturers here, despite yeah everything bitter in this country. At the very least, I know there are still good people and hopes for them. We learned everything about pelvis today. And when I say everything it really mean all about pelvis. From the muscles and its actions to the fascia to the vessels to the nerves to the relations and everything. Oh, it was a tough lectures. just like musculo-skeletal system in first year. Nevertheless, everything hard can comes easy if you know how to tackle it right? So I say, I would go with Dr Gehan to start revising early and DO YOUR BEST! Hehe. Like seriously, don't take this module easily. I know I'm gonna like this module more since it is 50% about women yay! I have always want to become an O&G one day. InsyaAllah. If I find it interesting and worth enough I will. :)

Talking about third year, it seems that the busy-ness has started to call everyone. Hehe. Many of us got phone calls favoring our commitments  and whatnot. I say, go for it as long as you can benefit others. As long as you can help, lend them a hand. Besides, who can assure you to be studying 24/7 when you're not helping? Even you yourself couldn't guarantee right. So I say, give them your hands. I myself try to be as helpful as I can. But, if you really couldn't make it, if you already have stuffs to settle in your hands, then be nice when turning them down. And bunch of sorry to whom I couldn't help. Maybe a next time?

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On the side notes, I hope you have heard of Gaza being attacked by Israel Laknatullah. Hmmmm it is very depressing to know that I couldn't do anything for them physically. All I can do is pray for them from afar and be with them in this jihad together. The aim of this jihad is one (for Allah of course) but the means are different. I'm taking part by doing the best I can in my study, which I hope will be beneficial to the mankind regardless of race and religion and solely for the sake of Him. So, may I ask what's yours? It can be anything from your talent of drawing, singing, and whatever. The thing is to always get the right intention; Lillahi ta'ala. InsyaAllah. May He accepts our deeds here and get counted for the hereafter.

I've been following some twitter conversations btw an Israeli and a Palestinian. Well, I can see that both are blaming each other. The first one said the latter wouldn't stop bombing their land and whatnot, but I say the impact inflicted to the Palestinian is much worse than in Israel. Also, I go with the Palestinian of course, since the trouble was started by the other one. Which rooted from ages ago thanks to that Balfour Declaration of British to grant the Jews a land. And why is that land has to be the Palestinians land may I ask? Of course, they've got this arranged btw them sometime before. Why don't give them some of your land in the other side of the world? You made that promise at the expense of others land which is just unreasonable and irresponsible.

In a nutshell, what I've said above is sourced from the internet. From wiki and twitter and yahoo answer. I know I could trust the source cause they have link to that ultimate source. Phew, what a complex rooting of information. T_T . I think I've typed a tad too far from what I always write, isn't it? Hm, everything is so mixed up in our current world. Corruption is everywhere but one thing for sure, for us, the Moslem, world isn't the purpose of our life. We aren't afraid to die in our God's cause because for us that is a holy sacred mission and accomplishment! All of us want that! Note to you that grotesque images you see in fb and whatnot are all the opposites when we see it in the hereafter. The blood bath will become a fragrant bed of flowers and enthrallment you have never imagine. And also, worldly life isn't the real life for us. World is just like a pit stop at the highway, in the journey to meet our Lord. InsyaAllah. :)

You're a bit harsh, doc.

Salam 'alaik.

Hey, I was revising my module just now when yeah, my mind started to roam around and diverted into something else. Like usual. Hehe.

So what was I thinking just now? Hm, I thought to pen it here cause it was a good and kind of dramatic to be read again sometime later in life.

The story goes like this:

During our practical exam for Endocrine System, there were 2 parts of exam to be taken, first was the Physio and the other was questions in the form of spots in the lab. Both were conducted in seperate venue. The Physio was in our lecture hall where we were given slides on projector and there you go. After finishing the Physio, my friends and I decided to revise some more on Histo, Patho, Anat and whatnot cause we had like 3 hours gap before the exam started again. Due to congested areas and classes being full of students we decided to sit on the floor at quite an isolated hallway. With some other female students.

So there we were, sitting on the floor with our labcoat on revising, questioning each other like a total excellent students. Then, came a lecturer. A male doctor. With his sunglasses on. Mind you we were at the end of an obscured hallway with a just nice sun light. He approached us and began his lecture.

''During my time, as a student, I never could bring myself to sit on the floor. You know because I have dignity and it doesn't allow me to do so.''

I was a bit taken aback by his remarks, a cruel remarks to be precise, so I started to ask my friends to go somewhere else and avoid him from continuing his speech. My other other friends didn't move an inch but I really couldn't stand him anymore. Haha. I am that sensitive, yes. When I was about to stand and go away, the lecturer stopped me and said 'No, no don't go, I was just saying blah blah blah' but yeah I was so full of loath, hatred and ego, my brain blocked me from listening to his words any further. So I just smiled at him and walked away like a boss. Hahaha.

We went to a better classroom, a bit full, so I had to ask a very gentleman friend of mine to move to other benches so that we could have his seats. He moved. Alhamdulillah. :) Now that I have that seat, I was able to compose myself and calm down a bit. You can say that I am until now still affected by his words. More to I couldn't believe someone so educated could bring himself to say such nasty things. So egoistic. And so full of pride. Which is not good for your life and society.

Later on, when we were on our way to go to practical lab, I bumped into that lecturer again. Like seriously? Haha. I know my patience was just tested by God. I was like 'Cool down, babe, just smile at him'. And so I did. Though only God knows what kind of tornado was going on inside. Hahaha.

It was a great lesson actually. To know that not all of our lecturers are that nice. Some of them are well, a bit harsh. And I was told, more of the harsh ones are the ones teaching in the hospitals, for the clinical students. So, yeah to myself, be very prepared for whatever cruel remarks and be a bit ignorant to whatever bitter words they are about to give you later on. :) Just keep the positive ones, okay. To the above lecturer, I am sorry, but I really couldn't extract a single positive things from what you told me earlier. :) And yeah I did remember my first class with you was during first year and all I can say is you have always been like that. I wish you good and nice days ahead, doc! :)

First Exam Third Year

Salam 'alaik. Hey you all lame tak jumpa kan. Hikhikhik.

Anyway, Alhamdulillah dah habis dah exam practical tadi. InsyaAllah tawakal je la kan, kita dah usaha, and kita percaya Allah tak akan menzalimi hamba-Nya, bahkan sangat sayangkan kita semua. InsyaAllah Dia tolong punya, Amin. :)

On 14th nanti sambung lagi exam lagi satu. The MCQ part if Endocrine System. Lepas habis ni, proceed dengan Genito-Urinary System pulak. Haish debor nak start module baru ni. Tebal kot. Ala-ala CNS gitu. And I've experienced average result for that module, which I really want to avoid again. So, need to study hard some more.

After exam tadi, balik rumah and had yummy lunch with housemates and Kak Teha, Mus, Fana and Anith. Tomyam sayur and ayam goreng kunyit. Huhuhu. Naiss one. Diorang datang nak pass gambar raya haji hari tu. Kemain la kan amek gamba kat studio tau. Hahaha aku join aje dah orang ajak kan.

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Called Malaysia and Mur dah start cuti sekolah, untung la kan. Haritu kan aku call Fadzli kat sekolah. Mesti dia terharu sangat kan aku call jauh-jauh. Haha die terkejut kot. Die kata 'ni nombo ada 2 2 ni mesti oversea ni' haha. Egypt number kan ada +2 initial die. Ali tengah revised Mod Math mase tu. Hmm aku dulu Mod Math A je. Tak dapat A+ pun, pastu kena marah dgn cikgu Math sbb Add Math A+ pulak kan. Haha nasibla. Papepun, aku memang kureng sikit nombor-nombor ni. Sudoku takpe. Haha. Nasib baik le amek Medic skang kan. XD tapi sebenarnya orang yg terer math ni bagus tau. Math is interesting tau. Cume a bit tough la. But really interesting sbb you always get absolute answer kan. Maybe ade la kot yg kene gune approximation tapi most of the time memang ada la absolute number kan. Cam best la. Die macam lock and key hypothesis tu. Specific. Nombor ni produced only by this and this. Gitu la.

Ok, till then. Gambar rumah aku tak cukup orang hmm sedih je. Rai raya kat Tanta pulak time ni. So, ada 3 orang je la. Macam angels kan kitorang. Suci gitu. Putih. Haha. Kemain. :D

Wassalam.

A Wrap Up for the early weeks of third year.

Assalamualaikum.

Huhu, kat Egypt ni semangat betul diorang nak raya haji tau. Meriah macam kita nak raya puasa. Comel je. Neway, esok engkorang semua puasa okeh jangan tak puasa. Besar ganjaran dia. Meh, kite copy paste sikit.

''Berdasarkan hadis daripada Abu Qatadah ra berkata : telah ditanya Rasulullah saw mengenai puasa di hari Arafah, lalu baginda Rasulullah saw menjawab dengan sabdanya “diampunkan dosa tahun yang lalu dan diampunkan dosa tahun yang hadapan (selepas)” Sahih Muslim.''

Haaaa, gitu. Diampunkan dosa tahun lepas dan tahun akan datang, insyaAllah. Tapi kena la puasa elok-elok. Means puasa hati sekali, mulut, mata, telinga dan tingkatkan amalan sunat yang lain. Awww aku terasa di situ, insyaAllah, kita buat yg terbaik ok! :)

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Anyway, semalam the Arabs have been very nice to me. This, I know, was very contradicted to what I just posted days ago about how I've been annoyed to the max by them. Huhu. Macam ni, masa nak turun tangga kat faculty hari tu, kain baju kurung aku tersangkut kat besi-besi kerawang kat tangga tu. Then, ada sorang adik or kakak arab ni tolong tarikkan. Aaaaa so sweeet. Pastu pastu, on the same day lepas balik kelas tu aku gi beli air tau, 6 botol okay angkat sendiri. Gagah perkasa gitu. Bila dah sampai rumah, ada sorang adik perempuan ni tolong bukakkan pintu lif utk kita, siap tekankan nombor floor lagi. Awwww yes, sometimes, some of them can be very nice. (Some of them, bukan all of them HAHA)

On the other hand, I've caught some infections in both my nose and eyes. I mean not in that severe way. Just the mild one. Got rhinorrhea plus a stye as a bonus. Lama tak dapat sakit-sakit ringan macam ni. Not that I pray I want them always, just that, it helps me to always be sure to remember Him more. So sweet. :) Though felt a bit uncomfortable during classes, what with the collection of mucous in the nostril and also stinging feeling in my eye. Couldn't give 100 percent concentration on the lectures because of them. Hey suka bagi excuse kau ni. Huhu. And Alhamdulillah, they are getting better now.

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And also, regarding my sharing progress. Now, we've started to meet the juniors who are so sweet in their own ways. I don't have any sisters so you know it's always kind of fascinating to have one. Or more. May everything goes well, amiiin. I'm not that good to be their sister cause I know I'm lacking in shoo many things here and there but I'll try my best to help them and be there for anything. Huhu.

But but the upmost important thing to tell here and spread to the world is that, we gonna have like a WEEK of holiday for raya haji starting from tomorrow!! Ngahahahha I'm one happy giant now. Wohoooo. Okay a tad too excited just now but hehe I am, so, excuse me. Hey tell me who don't anticipate the holiday! They are freaking liars, right! LOL. I wanna study and catch up the whole new things we learned about Endocrine System. Make some notes and buy some new books too, I guess. So, I need money. *wink wink*

Alrite, that's all for tonight. Haish I always become hyper like this whenever tomorrow is holiday, aren't I? Huhu, whatever. So good night!

Assalamualaikum. Has a blessed day tomorrow. Puasa esok jangan lupa! Masak buka sedap-sedap tau! XD

Bestfriends.

Salam 'alaik.

To think back how my life has been for all these years, I can say that I'm nothing but who I am today, thanks to my family members and my dear friends. You know how they say friends are like your family?

I'm very grateful that He has sent me numerous friends who are willing to help me go through everything there are in life. It's true that friends are the ones who coloured up and cheer my days. And I believe everyone has their own special friends. So do I. I do have two special friends whom I treasure the most. Hehe.

One is back in my country. One is here with me in Alexandria. They are the ones I trust most and know me inside and out. Has seen me in my good and baddest shape, has been beside me through thick and thin, has given me the advices at times I need them most, the ones I always could count on, and for sending them to me and made our path crossed each other, I thank you Allah.

T____T

This is actually something very delicate and cheesy to talk about in front of them. Cause confessing my heart isn't something I do best.

Nevertheless, what I'm saying is that Allah always has the best plan for you. Because He is our Helper. In fact, the Greatest Helper. He doesn't make life hard without purpose. He gives you that because He believes you are strong enough to withstand it. "

For every difficulty, there is relief" He says in Quran.

I know it's easier said than done but hey, think about this when the time comes and InsyaAllah, you gonna do just fine and pass the test with flying colourful rewards/pahala. Hehe.

Only that you are the one who have to see and decide, which part of your life, do you think is the best plan He has made for you.

If you are sulking on life, how God has treated you, then think about your purpose of life, why He has sent you here in the first place. Have you fulfill them all? Or maybe you're the one who are unable to choose which part of life is the best present given by Him.

Stop sulking, and make a move now!
Be a good servant of His, make something beneficial to the mankind and our mother nature. That is our life purpose actually as what was told in our Holy Quran. For those who believe, there's always a relief because He is the Greatest Helper. Just do it and pray. :)

Aku pulak yg takut lebih

Salam 'alaik.

Its not long before SPM begins. I seems to get the butterflies too though it's not me who's gonna sit for it. My brother is. You guys, do pray for him okay! And to all the other friends whom bros or sis or cuzzies gonna sit for SPM too, I wish them best of luck!

Pray for the ummah excellence, will you? You know how they say that the current youth alias us, ourselves gonna be the leader of future? Yeah, pray for all of us. :)

Neway, weeks went by, sending us to future. Sometimes, it gets a tad boring too. Haha. To go back and forth through the routine, nothing new really. While at some other bright days, which are not frequent, the motivation gets to the highest peak. Why is it eh?

Oh and tomorrow is the holiday. Only a day of rest in a week time. But I'm grateful enough rather than no holiday at all which is so sick even to be imagined. Yikes, no no. I'd be a drained battery at the end of med school if things  are gonna be like that. Haha. As tomorrow is a holiday and it's my turn to cook, I was thinking to feed everyone like really much like seriously cause yeah it's holiday. XD

In a nutshell, everything is fine here. So, till then.

p/s: Eid Adha is around the corner. Among the things we should do (sunat) ; fasting from 1st-9th Dzulhijjah, reading Quran, charity, zikir (remembering Him) and other good deeds as we know. Good luck!

Wassalam.