I Left Home For 11 Years

Salam alaik people. Hello blog!

Well, I am currently back in home sweetest home in Malaysia. Alhamdulillah *insert widest grin ever!

The happiest feeling I must say. Because well, at last I got to be home and be stress-free for maybe 6 months minimum HAHA. I know thats so confident of me to say 'stress-free'. Anyhoo, when I think about it again, I really have made my home a touch-N-go place for the last 11 years, since I went to boarding school at 13. So by all rights, I deserve this stress-free 6 months hihi. Self-acclaimed.

So, what did I do at home?

Hmm, honestly at first I did nothing!

Then, I realized I havent done any proper housechores for the last 11 years. I did it just when I want or my mom asked me. So, off I went downstairs, grabbed a sweep and turn into a domestic goddess. Nope! Well, I started off by just helping my mom. Doing whatever she's doing. Cooking and laundry. Asking why like this, why cant I do it like this, isnt it better this way? Really someone should put a tape over my lips! HAHA.

Well, I've got to say, I salute my mother so much for being so awesome and patient. Also the rest of mothers worldwide. Really, how did they do it? Taking care of children and making up the home is sooooooooooo tiresome! You should see the mountain of clothes especially when my brothers came home. Oh God, I feel like burying myself below the bed! As tiresome I felt, I am still far from my mother's par. She could continue gardening in the evening after all the pergi pasar, kemas peti sejuk, siang ikan ayam sotong etc, masak and laundry! Phew, long way to go tiqah sahmah haha! Anyway, my mom's answer is so simple. She said "Your time will come." Thats so deep, man, I can feel my hairs shiver a bit. Luls.

But yeah, thats the challenge for mothers. That is the reason why mothers are so dignified in Islam. For the vital role they play in nurturing the generations, well they we deserved to be! *smug face haha.

Aside from brushing up my domestic goddess skills, I also spend money time on books. Plenty of books! Those I missed reading because of the so called busy life while studying. Hihi, I am so into Roza Roslan's books these days. She is the wife of Prof Kamil Ibrahim, the author of Travelog Haji; Mengubah Sempadan Iman. She writes mostly about her life, her experience with very enlightening values she learned along the way. So yeah, I hope I could finish all these piling books before housemanship starts.

Last 4 days, I just came back from Kedah and Perlis vacaycay! It was so awesome with these girls; Husna Z, Iman and Mira. TripKampungGirls what we call ourselves. I got to see paddy fields (Kg Tok Keling) up close for the first time. Walking between petak sawah (with white trousers, what a genius tiqah sahmah -_-) witnessing a big black mouse scurrying into a hole (terperanjat iolls), having a taste of kerabu pucuk paku by Husna's Tok. Meeting old friends and new kind people, visiting Malaysia lovely tourist spots, Gua Kelam and Padang Besar (like I'm not Malaysian hehe). Husna is a goooood driver, like seriously, I am so inspired. I think I could drive instantly! But nope, when I got home, I am still that tiqah sahmah who got the car keys out just to heat the engine HAHAHAHA I'm so pathetic I know, lol whatever! ^_^")

Hmm I wish I could tell everything here, but no, I dont want to. My head is thinking and wondering and doubting myself. Since last month. *insert Celine Dion's At Seventeen song in background, so much love for this woman's music. Mostly about myself. About getting on the next phase of life. Working and committing. Phew, it sounds so adulthood. (LOL, how old do you think you are again, tiqah sahmah?) So many commitments isnt it? Well, being human is a responsibility itself. So yeah, do whatever it takes to get you to your final abode in Jannah.

Fighting!! :)

Pls pray for me, okay. #doakanyangbaikbaikje . Lol, thats the hashtag we came up with during travelling with TripKampungGirls. :)

Try count how many LOL and HAHA in this post. I think I am easily amused these days haha. See?

Ok, till then.

Sesak

Salam 'alaik.

Huhu, semalam semua orang kecoh dengan meeting with kpt tu kan. Well, I didn't go anyway cause I had too much travelling already and I tak rela nak tambah another miles. Kalau miles tu boleh exchange dengan trip keliling dunia selama seminggu takpe jugak. ;)

Basically, dia just bagi alternative untuk further study. Its either you wanna proceed in Egypt or local. But tu la, kalau nak credit transfer dia akan compare dulu syllabus kita ngan dia, buat mapping (taktahu nak peta kan apebenda but this was the word my friends keep on using so whatever) and of course isi borang and tunggu. Yeah tunggu lagi for some period then baru dapat kata putus from the IPT and in which year you gonna be put (most likely preclinical), while some of your friends in Egypt already wear their white coat and do rounds. Or so.

Personally, I'd love to just continue in Alex. I mean, I already have a vision of me in that graduation robe and hat since the first day I stepped into the university, so why dont we just end everything there and back for good? That is what I really think and want. But tu lah. Kenapalah mesirian ni ngok sangat gi jatuhkan dr.m dulu. You jeopardize our future la ngok! (Emo ni emo haaa). Ah pakcik internet sebelah rumah tu pun tak suka dr.m memang nyampah ar tengok. Before balik haritu aku gi bayar duit internet pun nak taknak je bayar bila nampak bendera 'Irhal ......' atas meja dia. Yeah right, genius!

Ok whatever. Sebenarnya tak habis geram lagi tau. Geram sampai rasa malas nak balik sana jumpa balik orang-orang ngok yang telah menjual darah saudara sendiri sebab sikap tak sabar, tamak, pendengki dan ngok diorang tu. (Haha emo lagi). Tapi tipu ar kalau kata taknak belajar kat Msia, sape taknak duduk dekat ngn mak ayah kan. Plus fed up ngan mesirian lagi. Tapi bila tengok kena turun tahun tu buat rasa "errrr terima kasih je la."

I've been (we) through countless malam yg tak serupa malam (sleepless) baca buku dengan jantung berdegup laju mcm bullet train berdebar-debar draining all reserve of adrenaline (kesian jantung kita) semata-mata nak pass semua modules dengan cemerlang, only to repeat them ke? Haiyaaa. I know bagus sebab belajar dua kali lagi ingat, maybe boleh jadi top student (?) tapi.... "errr, terima kasih".

I seriously don't wanna go into that cycle again just as much as I dont want to go through ujian JPJ lagi. Penat tahu.

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Exhale.

Anyway.

Since I'm studying using rakyat's money, then I'm obliged to abide by the decision la kan. Kita tengok apa mara kata. Kalau dah takdir (huaaa pasrah) kena repeat year in Msia, what to do.

Tapi....... aku rasa kitorang akan balik Mesir jugak la. Well, tengok je ar dulu. Hish suspen pulak rasanya haha.

Alrite, there goes the rambling for today. Till then. :)

Wassalam.

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Movie Review : 8 Jam

Salam.

I'm gonna make a movie review malam ni. Sebab aku baru lepas tengok satu movie. Wehehe. Ok tapi jangan expect aku cerita pasal plot, lighting, acting quality bla bla bla you know those stuff sebab aku nak cerita pasal pengajaran yang aku dapat dari cerita ni. I know I sound skema skema ubi sikit tapi takpe, this is how I roll hehe.

Movie title: 8 Jam
Genre: Action.

Filem ni revolves around a guy named Alang (Shaheizy Sam), dia ni banduan yang dijatuhkan hukuman mati mandatori sebab dia sudah bunuh sama satu orang. Makwe dia precisely (mesti korang pelik apsal dia bunuh makwe sendiri kan tapi takpe kita kupas kendian). And dia ada lagi 8 jam before the hukuman. So dalam masa 8 jam tu we'll see flashbacks of his life.

"Alang ni budak yang dibesarkan dalam suasana yang sangat tak kondusif untuk tumbesaran mental; kawasan lorong sempit sarang gangster. Mak dia kerja kat pasar, setiap bulan ada gangster mintak duit perlindungan. Mak dia miskin, so Alang resorts to steal food bila dia lapar. Then bila kantoi dia kena pukul la dengan pakcik pakcik ngan mak dia sekali. Mak dia sedar Alang tak patut dibesarkan dalam keadaan berserabut macam ni so mak dia pinjam duit kat Along then nak lari pindah tempat lain untuk mulakan hidup baru dan dalam masa yang sama dia nak lari dari Along tu. Sekali kantoi dengan Along kan, terus mak dia kena bunuh dengan gangster-gangster ni. Yang sadisnya Alang tengok sendiri macam mana mak dia kena bunuh."

So, try imagine.
Ok, imagine.
Imagine mental si Alang ni ha.

Sesetengah orang macam Alang, tak bernasib baik. Membesar dan terdidik dalam suasana yang tak harmoni, disogok dengan keganasan sejak kecil, salah sikit kena lepuk, terpaksa tengok mak dia mati depan mata. Mental dia dicorakkan dengan benda-benda macam ni sejak kecil, so bila dah besar, dia jadi ganas dan macam tak kenal erti kasih sayang sebab mak mati awal tambah pulak status dia sebagai 'budak lorong', semua orang kutuk-kutuk dia masa Alang masuk rumah anak yatim. Tak ada support system kecuali makwe dia yang dia jumpa kat rumah anak yatim tu jugak. Of whom Alang telah bunuh sebab menduakan Alang. Actually bertunang je pun. Tapi being Alang, his mind finds answer only in violence. Semua benda pun kena settle cara ganas. So, yeah.

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Dan sungguhlah memikirkan kisah Alang ni adalah realiti masyarakat kita, buat aku rasa tak tentu hala. Berat nanang. Eceh. No, just macam sedihnya fikir nasib orang macam ni. Diorang ni ada je keliling kita. Cuma kita je tak perasan sebab diorang tak tunjuk. And maybe sebab kita yang tak sensitif. Campur sikap individualistik dalam diri masing-masing. Malas nak campur tangan hidup orang lain.

Kita kena sedar, to some extent, we have to interfere jugak. Within limits la kan. Sebab Allah cakap memang kena berpesan-pesan pada kebenaran dan kesabaran. (Surah Al Asr). Let say if one day, kita ditakdirkan berjiran dengan orang yang abuse anak. Takkan nak tengok je.

Resolusi:

Orang-orang macam ni kita kena reach their heart. Bagi hati dia makanan, jiwa dia kasih sayang, bagi harapan kat dia. Kita semua kena ada kesedaran untuk bantu sesama insan. Indirectly these things akan jadikan kita lebih bersyukur, lebih menghargai.

Kadang-kadang mentaliti diorang tak sama dengan kita. Ada yang rasa dunia sangat kejam dan zalim jadi nak bunuh diri. Ada yang rasa takda harapan langsung kat depan tu. Bingung taktau nak buat apa dengan diri takda dorongan, takde self esteem, rasa apa pun tak boleh.

Kita of course la sejak darjah 6, parents hantar gi ceramah motivasi yang suruh set aim, set future dari sekarang, yang selalu cakap betapa kita adalah insan terpilih dari berjuta-juta sperm (ni serious ada cerita dulu). Alang mana pernah pergi benda talk talk ni semua. Yang dia tahu, lapar, ambik je makanan orang. Tak puas hati, gaduh. Sayang, bawak tinggal satu rumah.

So, kalau kita jumpa orang macam Alang, lets together give them hope. Tunjukkan jalan. Ajar apa yang patut. Paling penting sekali, we have to tell them tujuan hidup kita semua. Dari mana kita datang, untuk apa, dan kemana kita akan pulang akhir nanti. None other the answer to those 3 qs is Allah kan. Personally, aku rasa takde benda yang boleh bagi harapan sehebat Allah. Nak happy ever after, jawapan dia Allah. Bila sedih taktau nak overcome macam mana, Allah is our strength. Pergantungan hidup kita hanya pada Allah. Bukan pada boss kita. Bukan pada our parents. Bukan pada pakwe makwe.Tapi kita pun janganlah lupa berusaha. Allah tak zalim, Allah Maha Adil, kita akan diberi sesuai dengan usaha dan yang terbaik bagi kita pada masa tu. InshaAllah, redhalah dan bersangka baiklah. (Huhu I am ketakutan membaca kata-kata sendiri).

Ada la haritu aku baca novel Fatimah Syarha kan, dia kata didikan Islam kepada penganutnya sangat hebat sampai mampu mengubah personaliti seseorang jadi terlalu unggul even psychologist Barat pun tak mampu nak bagi reason kenapa dan macam mana. Diorang tak mampu nak buat teori pun. Yelah, pening diorang fikirkan macam mana didikan Islam tu mampu buat Saidina Umar yang sebelum Islamnya bencinya pada Nabi sampai nak bunuh Nabi tiba-tiba boleh jadi orang yang paling sayang sekali kat Nabi, macam mana didikan Islam tu boleh buat Abdul Rahman bin Auf sanggup infaqkan harta dia bukan takat singgit dua hinggit (kalau kita tak mampu takpela) tapi banyaknya harta yang diinfaqkan sampaikan derapan langkah unta-unta yang mengangkut harta beliau mampu menggegarkan tanah! Dan jugak macam mana didikan Islam ni mampu buat pengikut dia tak takut mati malah merinduinya. MashaAllah, aku yang mentaip ni yang malu sendiri. Huhu. Hebat kan orang Islam zaman dulu, hasil didikan Nabi, murabbi agung kita. :')

Kita orang Islam tak diajar untuk hidup sendiri-sendiri tanpa kisahkan kawan yang lain. Kita diajar bahawasanya kita bersaudara. Cubit peha kanan, peha kiri terasa juga. Kita taknak masuk syurga sorang-sorang. Kita taknak ditahan oleh orang lain saat tinggal selangkah lagi nak masuk syurga.

Usaha kita yang Allah kira, bukan natijah.
Sebab Allah tahu natijah hanya Dia yang kuasa.

Jadi, berusahalah hingga ke titik akhir hidupmu! Huhu.

Dan, jadikanlah Islam teras hidupmu. Apapun yang terjadi carilah Allah.

Wassalam. :)

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#3 SLR; Its Hard to Concentrate

Salam.

Its hard to focus in study in the midst of everything going on here in Egypt. Its a turmoil. A real war against Al Haq. It saddens me to see how our own brothers would not back our holy religion but stay behind the secularist. Hadn't they heard that Islam is the way of life? Islam is something so holistic; just look at how much of the land was governed by the caliphate empires years ago? Almost two third of the world was once under the caliphates who were like us, Muslim. They did followed Syariah laws, and what's so wrong about exercising it, you don't want to give it a chance? (Though you aren't supposed to give it a chance, you should oblige by them once you said the syahadah). Instead you want to separate country matters from religion. You have been given the chance, yet you just rub it off. You just brace yourself when Allah ask you in the afterlife, ok.

They don't understand Islam. Simply that. When you don't understand something, you tend to spread only lies and ends up confusing and inciting a lot more innocent mind to hate us. There are thousands in this world who got the wrong message of Islam, who misunderstand its teaching and its believers.

Ya Allah. It really saddens me to the core. I don't have any power right now. I don't even deserve to hold any. But one thing I know, all of you and I, we, we have the power of dua (prayer and hope), blessed by our Most Loving Allah upon us. Lets pray for Islam, be sure and have pure faith in this arduous yet beautiful path. He hears our cry even when you call upon him in the deepest pit of the earth.

Try to soak your heart in this beautiful and calming verse from holy Quran:

''And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided. '' 

Al Baqarah, verse 186. 

Ps: Muslims don't hate other religions, we accept and respect your belief. We are all humans in this world, no one is supreme than any others (though many wish they are). We are all the same, just that we have different belief and view. And we should all celebrate the difference.

I watched a video just now, about the real story lies behind this tumbling coalition happening in Egypt now. A video that really opens my eyes and heart on who's the braver one, who are the one deserved to be supported. Just send me a private message to watch the video, I'll copy the link for you.

So till then. Time is running out. I might not be able to interfere in this matter physically, but know that my mental and intellectual could be useful somehow to combat corrupted minds and soul out there, inshaAllah. May Allah bless all of us and stay safe. And yeah, do prepare for this upcoming Ramadhan, set your intention straight, lets all put a goal to be better Muslim at the end of this course, inshaAllah. :)

Till then, Wassalam.

#1 Egypt oh Egypt

Salam 'alaik.

So, as most of you have known, Dr Morsi has been overthrown by a military coup yesterday. Its quite devastating to know that since I like him so much. You might ask what makes me to like him since I'm not even an eyelid close to be an Egyptian.

Nothing. Simply because I find him to have good and wise character of a leader. He is the first Egypt President, elected by the people themselves, who radiates very good Islamic examples, whose heart is brighten up by the holy verses of Quran he memorizes, the first President who refuse to stay in the palace and stay in his own house instead, he has a loyal, modest and fully covered First Lady who herself wished to be called First Servant instead. Can't you see? He holds a PhD in Engineering from US somemore. He is very well educated. And during his reign, he bravely cut down relations with Syria to show his disapproval of massive killing happening there done by the treacherous Assad government. Dr. Morsi also allowed the gate in Rafah border which leads to Palestine to be opened again after years of closing during Mubarak days.

But those were the days.

Immediately after Dr. Morsi was overthrown, the official channel of Muslim Brotherhoods (a party Dr. Morsi was once in) and few others had been closed down and some of the staff had been detained. So much of their (Egypt) freedom of speech. From what I know, during Dr. Morsi's day he has never denied any channels rights to be broadcasted eventhough some of them were badmouthing him days in days out. That's a very bold and steadfast leader you have, Egyptian! Then we also see a few of MB leaders had also been arrested and the border to Palestine was closed again. (I am utterly upset by this one).

*deep breath*

Haih. I don't know what more to say to these people of Egypt. They are all my families too due to our belief in the same god. But I couldn't find the answer to their hatred towards their legitimate president nor can I bring myself to believe what my ears heard the night of that tragic military coup. They were insanely celebrating the coup as if Dr. Morsi was a torturous dictator, someone who arranged the frequent blackout, the increment in groceries price and petrol price. I bet some of them thought of him that way, but come one guys. It has been only one year, why were you so eager and excited to see the changes? Rome isn't build in a day you know. Everything needs its time, you gotta be working very hard to improve something. Alas, you don't even change your attitude of littering around like its your mother's street yet you want Dr. Morsi to clean up those mess and change it to a garden of roses? As if you were asking someone else to clean up the toilet after you had used it. I don't know if that's the norm over here since you've been under Mubarak's teaching for far too long. I really don't know if that's what your people taught you.

Haih, I seriously lost hope in you guys. This morning, when I was out to sit for the exams, I couldn't see you the same way before. All I saw were just some people who are self centered, narrow minded and undercivilized. Yes you have many pious persons here, yes you have a lot of brilliant professors here but sadly yes, you also have a lot more corrupted leaders here and yes you have far too high rate of heart blinded people who can't see kindness in others, who has zero empathy to our brothers and sisters in Syria and Palestine, who are so selfish I wonder how you would get up again. Only Allah will help you if He wills.

But. As I was typing this and complaining over you, Egyptian, inshaAllah I will never forget to put you in my dua everyday. Apart from being the place where I study Medicine and Life subject, it is also a very special place indeed. I know Egypt would never be as pretty and romantic as Venice is or as Paris is, but on this very land, Allah has shown numerous signs of His existence. The only place Allah has shown himself to Prophet Musa 'alaihi salam, the place where He brought down 'al manna wa as salwa' food from heaven and many more. The stones and dust of this land has bore witness of the tears and sweat of Musa and Yusuf 'alaihuma as-salam during their days of preaching Islam. T_T Plus, Masr is one of the regions on this world that has been quoted in our holy Quran. That is an honour from Allah, dear Egyptian. Why can't you see it the same way we see it? You should be extra pious than us, extra vigilant than us because you understand the Quran way better than us do. Wake up Egyptian!

I pray for better Egyptian and a better Egypt. I strongly believe that a country strength relies on its great human resource. Not simply the typical common man on the streets; the one who violently shouts and screams whenever he is mad, but a man who always rationalize, has a good logic, has a pure heart and strong intention and close with his god, Allah. May we be that kind of resource for this ummah.

May Allah bless Egypt now and forever. Amin. :')

"Ya Allah, grant your mercy to those who had died while spreading Your cause, grant them martyrdom ya Allah. Grant us the one who are still left in this dunya, a pure heart to solely work for You, to bring up Your religion. Put us among the ones who give contributions to Your deen, cleanse our heart from fasad and dunya, pour in bravery and steadfastness as You had done to Your messengers before us. We sincerely want to be a part of the Solihin ya Allah, Amin. :')"

Ps: for further reading, feel free to browse Al Jazeera Egypt. 

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Talking about our future.

Salam 'alaik.

Believe it or not, I had just done watching video. Political videos precisely.

Oh my goodness.

What with the curse words all around? I doubt our dearest Prophet Muhammad ever said just one bad word to the other side. Hmmmm.

Or has cursing become the new synonym of politic? Duhh

Both sides are the same, really. Should really watch our tongue yaw. Everytime. Your choice of words reflect your own self.

Was just watching and observing. For now, I judge from their language.

This year I would be voting if I were born earlier in January. Sadly, I am a November baby, so yeah 2018 will be my first time voting (I would be an MO by that year). Just thinking of it gives me goosebumps. Duhhh. (26 years old had once seems so far away you know).

So, to all voters out there, choose the right one. The one who could not only develop the country but benefit ALL the people as well. Who could provide a better future for the next generation and nurture them to be a holistic generation. Who are 'filled' inside and outside. For I believe the inner strength of oneself is more powerful and it's the core of an individual. If the core is well, it will radiates only goodness and proven by the outer self. In sha Allah.

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Today, I finished my last professional skills exam for preclinical. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. :) Now the study leave for GIT shall start. And I shall be burying my head deep inside the book. No, books. Like bookssssssss and yeah you got it, right.

''Life is when Allah decides to bless you with a chance to enter His jannah.''

 paraphrased from Hilal Asyraf.

K, toodles. :)
Ma'a salaamah.

El Masr

During the frequent times I whine about the sands, the dust and the ugliness of this place, I have to always remember that these dust and stones are the one witnessing countless efforts and steadfastness of many of my prophets before. The road is not beautiful. But the destination definitely is. Be contented. See with your heart. 

This land is the land where my prophets once walked and travelled. And I should be proud to be walking on it too. Count your blessing, and cherish it. :)

Of what actually happen before winter break

Salam 'alaik dear readers. :D

Guess where am I now? Hewhew ok tak comel langsung ketawa macam tu. Anyway, alhamdulillah, I am in Johor Bahru now, at the home sweeeeet home.

I is very the happy one you know. This year punye winter break, diberi kesempatan utk berjalan lebih sikit atas bumi ni, mentadabbur alam, for that Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah. I get to meet many new friends, seniors, juniors and family.

I was in Paris for 6 whole days and then I headed back home. Actually Paris wasn't in my plan pun awalnya. I dah beli tiket to Malaysia on 15th Feb then tiba-tiba university awalkan cuti. Nak awalkan tiket I have to pay like 2000 LE which was quite a sum weih. I macam kenapa sungguh berat ujian yg diberikan Ya Allah (over moi) hehehe. I decided to keluar from Egypt to anywhere I tak kisah asalkan not Egypt. Ended up, ticket to Paris paling murah and ada senior abang (female) kat sane. Aku seolah-olah nampak cahaya di hujung terowong gitu then ke sana lah daku membawa diri.

Dan sesungguhnya aku ni memang lah pelik dan perlukan kelas firm decision making. I dont even understand what was I thinking back then when I decided to go to Paris. Bila dah beli tiket to Paris tiba-tiba rasa menyesal sbb better if aku awalkan je tiket, dapat spend time with bros yg cuti CNY and pergi walimah sedara aku kat Kelantan (Kelantan okay, once in a blue moon je pergi). All this happened masa peri examination. Dahla balik dari Paris sampai Cairo pukul 2.50 pagi on 15th Feb. Balik Malaysia pun 15th Feb gak. Ah sudah takut pulak aku kalau tetibe flight delay kang, ade yg terlepas flight balik Malaysia pulak. Messy sungguh hidup aku waktu tu worrying over something that is yet to happen.

I was in a great stress tau waktu exam tu fikir ni fikir tu, sumpah la rase macam Datuk Seri pikir bussiness kat negara jiran apa aku merepek #%%^&**( hehehe. Jadi bila kita stress kita buat apa? Kakak naqibah kita kata pohonlah pertolongan drpd Yg Maha Pengatur itu.

Jadi........

Alhamdulillah.....

Semuanya turned out great. Malah sangat better dari expectations aku, hilang semua kerisauan dan penyesalan (ewah) seriously terharu sangat. Cantik je Allah aturkan semuanya untuk aku. Maka nikmat Tuhan yg mana lagi hendak aku dustakan? Guys, hands down, honestly, aku sungguh touching mu tahu dok?

Kak JR sangat baik. Seniors kat sana bawak kitorang jalan-jalan. Baik. Memang sangat baik. Banyak aku belajar drpd mereka. Bukanlah nak kata diorang buat kelas mengajar aku duhhh cuma, we could learn something from someone else's action kan. Gitu la.

Bila diorang baik sangat macam tu kan, aku pun rasa, aku nak jadik baik macam tu jugak kat orang lain. Sebab they made me happy by that. So I hope I could be the one making others happy too. Macam cycle of good deeds oh bukankah dunia akn menjadi sebuah tempat yg sgt best bila dipenuhi insan berfikiran sedemikian rupa?

Hei panjangnya aku tulis.

Ok lah, gambar will be updated soon in another entries. Those were such a memory seriously. Sangat best sampai tak tergambar best mcm mana lah Allah prepares utk hamba Dia kat syurga nanti. Huuuu just thinking about it gives me some goosebumps. Excited but no less fearful. Anyway, just strive hard in this life and be the best give the best we could in this life for endless bliss awaiting in hereafter. InsyaAllah.

p/s: Give, we shall be happy.
p/s: Worrying is like rocking a chair. It gives you something to do but never brings you anywhere. Thanks kak JR.
p/s: Want less, you'll feel rich. Nevertheless, dream high, you'll be stronger.

Perasaan kena tipu

Ok, now I am so fed up with my house owner and his brother. When I gave a second thought, they have been conspiring against us all along, They are a bunch of bully demanding piles of money from us, the so called lavish Malizi which is not true. Those are not our money okay.

First about the house rent during last summer break. Supposed when we were not in the house, there shouldn't be any bills coming in, right. But they demanded 100 LE per month at that time. And we gave him.

Then about the lift maintenance. They were collecting money from everyone in the flat including us. It was 1200LE per house at first but after negotiating we got it down until 700LE. And we gave him.

And now for the umpteenth time, they want 400LE pulak for water tank maintenance on the roof. They claimed this time it is once for all time. Like an investment in future. If you pay this thing now, then there will be no water issue for the next 20 years. He did said 20 years, I'm not making it up okay.
And the *&^%%$$ thing is that after the repairing was done, the water in our toilet wouldn't come out from the pipe. Like seriously 20 years?! This is your frigging claimed 20 years?!
Then, we asked them to call the plumber to repair our pipe. We asked him for a month and yes you guess it right, the plumber never came. The house owner's brother told me, the plumber himself didn't show up. He kept repeating bukrah (tomorrow) and ba'din bukrah (After tomorrow) for like thousands times.

And not until yesterday only I was told, actually the house owner is the one who is responsible to pay for all the maintenance fees of his house not the current people residing inside the house! He is the Egyptian, he should know better than us about the house rules! And yet he has eaten up our money. It's not the money I'm concerned most with but, these people, they are muslims, how could they cheat another muslims just like that? Where is that sense of brotherhood in their community? I know brotherhood is easy to instill when you are similar, but with foreign people its hard! But still, Islam teaches us to keep being good to everyone not just with your own frigging buddy. Duhhhh.

Phuh, I think my blood pressure is rocketing up to 90/140 mmHg typing emotionally like this. Haha but this is the fact.

Never. Let. Anyone. In. Your. Family. Study. Here. In. Egypt. 

Unless he doesn't mind dealing with uncivilized people like my house owner and his brother. I'm sorry if there happens to be some english-speaking Egyptian who reads my humble blog but I think that's like an 'impossibrurity', like 0.0001% in probability. I'm not generalizing. It's just most of them are. And dealing with these flocks are the most adventurous, patience-testing, sadistic moment you could possibly face ever in the whole wide world. Like no joke. Seriously.

While most of the Egyptians could raise your blood pressure, there is nevertheless some of them who are still having that good nature inside their heart. Yeah, but I think the ratio is not balanced at all. XD. Maybe I'm saying this because I am currently unstable in terms of emotion.  But I did find and bumped into beautiful examples shown by them now and then. Like for example, the other day, while I was walking through the shops, there was this one ragged old man. He was praying at the narrow pavement of a shop, next to hundreds of busy legs passing by him. The weather was cold and rainy and there he was doing his 'sujud' to the Rabb on a piece of flattened chipsy box. Chipsy is the famous junk food here anyway. I was really touched by the old man. He reminds me to perform 'salat' anywhere, anytime and in any conditions you are in. To take your 'salat' seriously. Cause it is the time to please your God, to show your gratitude to Him for blessing your whole day. T_____T May Allah bless the old man.

Ok. That's all. I know this post is like typed with an overwhelming hatred but I just need to pour it here. I am so gonna move out of this building! You go ask money from the wall and from the lift themselves!

Grrrrr of assignment and masalah rumah.

Assalamualaikum.

Hmmm lama aku tak mencurah emosi kat sini. Malam ni aku nak buat perangai. Hihihi.

Ok guys, onyomak, geset, go!!!!~

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Ya Allahhhhh. Aku sangat cuak la kuase doplohpat dah ni. Esok presentation.

Dikala budak-budak lain sedang asyik study utk upcoming exam, aku dan rakan-rakan se-assignment terbongkok-bongkok kat meja study sambil jemari keletak-keletuk menekan papan kekunci. (read: type written assignment). Tapi takpe. Orang kata berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian. Ewah. Hihihihi.

Eh tapi seriously la, dah lama kot tak present depan lecturers. Nervous sangat rasa. Ya Allah tolong lah esok dapat doctor best lagi qurratu 'aini. Heheheh pun boleh kan. XD

Kali ni dapat subjek Microb pasal Viral Infection of Genital System. Aku, precisely dapat tang diagnosis, treatment and prevention & control measures of herpes simplex virus. Tutor kitorang best. Dr. Noha. :D Eventhough cam strict sikit kan, die baru habis PhD kot, tu pasal la mintak assignment kitorang scientific belake. Die suruh amek source dari journal. Masalahnye journal kat internet semuanya kedekut. Asyik kena subscribe je kan. Wiki jugak best dan senang paham. Kan kan kan. Tapi doc awal-awal kata jgn guna wiki. Haha. Kesiang..... Tapi takpe, kite jadikan wiki tu  tempat buat background reading and tempat utk get the idea, get the picture of thingss we gonna do. Ha gituuuu.

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On another account, aku kan eeee geram betul la dgn tuan rumah ni.....punye adik. Seriously la. Haishhhhh tak tau nak kata tang mana lagi dah. Kalau die faham bahasa melayu dah lame dah. Dah lame dah aku brainwash, clorox dan jemur kat Luxor. Haha motif kan cakap macam ni. Tapi eeeeeeeee. Die ni menipu! Cakap haritu nak tengok toilet rumah kitorang (ada problem sikit). Masa aku ajak naik sekali, die tengah tengok tv. Die kate 'nanti, nanti'. Dahtu, sampai ke sudah tak naik. Ko angin tak macam tu. Aku bukan setakat angin malah taufan Sandy terus! Rosak emosi aku pagi-pagi tau. Pastu bila jumpa balik dia, dia tengah ngeteh dgn abang dia aka the actual owner of our house. Boleh pulak abang dia kata 'Fi eh?'. Nampak sangat dia tak bagitau abang die pasal rumah kitorang ni. Aishhhhhhhh. Aku nak menghukum arab mesir secara general macam tak sampai hati pulak. Tapi memang macam ni la kebanyakannya. Geramnye la hai. Haaaaaaa nak pindah terus ar macam ni. Tapi malas ar nak pindah byk-byk kali. Penat kot. Dah la rumah sekarang ni fadhi. So memang of course banyak benda. Dgn peti ais nya, katilnya, geroboknya. Ahhhh. Tensi aku duduk sini. Memang tak nak lah bagi adik ke anak ke sedare ke belajar sini. No no no. Biarlah aku sorang je yg kene. Hahaha tetibe mcm kelakar kan cakap camni. Tapi hey, it's a fact man. Now I know kenapa abang aku ye ye tak bagi study kat Russia. Mesti sbb something like this jugak.

Oh talk about students overseas kan. Ingat best sangat ke. At least kalau kat Malaysia boleh mintak sedare sedari tolong. Siniii? Kawan ade lah. Tapi semua busy study ape semua, nak mintak tolong pun, segan malah terasa sangat tebal muka utk meminta-minta.

Tapi tu lah. Ini memang mengajar kita utk lebih berdikari. Solve the problems instead of run from it. Face the things, chin up and do what you can do. Kalau tak boleh jugak baru  mintak tolong kan. But really. These things memang perlukan courage and kesabaran yg tinggi. Itulah makin dewasa, makin matang kan. Makin reti. Makin faham. Hehehehe aku rasa tetibe mcm matang kan. Hey even aku nampak macam happy sepanjang masa di dalam ini ada taufan Sandy kau tahu sebab adik tuan rumah itu. Haishhhh. Taknak la cakap pasal dia lagi. Emosi aku. Dia baik je sebenarnye. Tapi buat keje lembap. Oppssss. Sorryyyy (tapi best sangat dapat tulis dlm blog hahahaha). Tolong lah tolong berubah pakcikkkkkk! Pakcik is pakcik. Bukannye Ziyad yg kecik lagi tu. So far as I know, you don't have works. So ape lahhh susahnya utk call kan tukang paip tuuuuu. Hey aku ni tadi kate taknak cerita lagi, then what is this?!

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Mari bukak buku baru.
Disebabkan esok nak present, marilah sama-sama tadah tangan dan doakan kesejahteraann aku dan kawan-kawan dlm menghadapai presentation esok. Aminnnnnn. :D

Dah, puas hati dapat buat terapi jiwa kat sini. Maaf atas kekasaran bahasa jika ada. Kbye.

Wassalam. Good luck to myself! Do your best!  

Never Give Up on Life.

Assalamualaikum, May Allah bless you, dear readers.

It's been quite sometime, I've made a hiatus in blogging. Pardon me, but really I don't have much time lately, maybe because I was the one not managing it really well. :)

Time flies, it sure does. It is already winter here also it is only a week left before my second exam in this semester. And I can't say I've read the books fine, cause despite all the promises and resolutions I made and intended, only a few managed to be kept. So sad.

Anyway, let's not give up okay. Because there's still time, still there is time to improvise everything. Also, let's not give up just yet because there is this someone who has never given up on you throughout your life. Who is this noble guy, let's find it out!

Not long ago, I supposed I've came to think of something very sweet, very obvious yet not many of us realized and grateful enough for it. It goes like this:

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"Have you realized that, when you are reading this post, while I was typing this post, every muscles and neurons in our body, are synergizing and working together for the sake of us? For the sake of us to be able to read, to think. Have you ever thought how your body, every single tiny miny cells composed in your body, has never given up on you? They've been working for us all this while (for twenty consecutive years in my case, never once it switch itself off, or else I might have died long time ago).

Yet, have we ever think what kind of work, beneficial work we've done for ourrselves? For other people? For the religion? Anything in the cause of Allah? Alhamdulillah, if the answer is yes. But, if it's the other one, let's together make a change in ourselves. :)

'They' have done their part. Obediently. Very loyal. Then, what about us? Done anything good yet? Secondly, never give up on life, okay. Cause truth is life has never given up on us.

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Guess, I'll leave you with this, something for us to ponder upon okay? :)

Till we meet again later.

It's Now Repro Turn! (Super Long)

Salam 'alaik dear readers. :)

You might be asking yourself what Repro means by now, aren't you? Hehe, it's nothing but just a short for reproductive system, my happen to be current module.

So, today was the beginning of this module. We were told that we'll be having only 2 hours of lectures without introduction. Was a bit puzzled though but happy at the same time cause yeah, saves my time hehe. But, later in the afternoon someone posted in fb that lectures got extended to 3 hours. Haihhhhh plus the introduction. Ohhhh nevermind, it's not that big a deal, right.

Off we went to the class then. At 2 o'clock in the evening. Though honestly, that grand and eager feeling to start new class already fades blown by the wind. Huhu. Plus, at that time of the day, the university staff have already counting seconds to get home.

Anyway, lectures started as it supposed to, starting with brief intro session by Dr Gehan from physio dept. God, she's so funny and cute too! Kept saying 'DO YOUR BEST' throughout the class. She added that this module is quite difficult and complex. Now, tell me which of our modules are easy. Nil. Furthermore, she also said female repro system makes 50% of the whole module. She said female repro is that complex but not the women themselves (talk about defending her gender, Dr Gehan ftw! haha) which sent the whole class laughing naughtily sheeshh and mammary gland (breast) making another 15% while male repro makes the rest 35%.

First real lecture began with Dr Sayed who teaches Anat,  a very funny guy too. I am so grateful being blessed by awesome lecturers here, despite yeah everything bitter in this country. At the very least, I know there are still good people and hopes for them. We learned everything about pelvis today. And when I say everything it really mean all about pelvis. From the muscles and its actions to the fascia to the vessels to the nerves to the relations and everything. Oh, it was a tough lectures. just like musculo-skeletal system in first year. Nevertheless, everything hard can comes easy if you know how to tackle it right? So I say, I would go with Dr Gehan to start revising early and DO YOUR BEST! Hehe. Like seriously, don't take this module easily. I know I'm gonna like this module more since it is 50% about women yay! I have always want to become an O&G one day. InsyaAllah. If I find it interesting and worth enough I will. :)

Talking about third year, it seems that the busy-ness has started to call everyone. Hehe. Many of us got phone calls favoring our commitments  and whatnot. I say, go for it as long as you can benefit others. As long as you can help, lend them a hand. Besides, who can assure you to be studying 24/7 when you're not helping? Even you yourself couldn't guarantee right. So I say, give them your hands. I myself try to be as helpful as I can. But, if you really couldn't make it, if you already have stuffs to settle in your hands, then be nice when turning them down. And bunch of sorry to whom I couldn't help. Maybe a next time?

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On the side notes, I hope you have heard of Gaza being attacked by Israel Laknatullah. Hmmmm it is very depressing to know that I couldn't do anything for them physically. All I can do is pray for them from afar and be with them in this jihad together. The aim of this jihad is one (for Allah of course) but the means are different. I'm taking part by doing the best I can in my study, which I hope will be beneficial to the mankind regardless of race and religion and solely for the sake of Him. So, may I ask what's yours? It can be anything from your talent of drawing, singing, and whatever. The thing is to always get the right intention; Lillahi ta'ala. InsyaAllah. May He accepts our deeds here and get counted for the hereafter.

I've been following some twitter conversations btw an Israeli and a Palestinian. Well, I can see that both are blaming each other. The first one said the latter wouldn't stop bombing their land and whatnot, but I say the impact inflicted to the Palestinian is much worse than in Israel. Also, I go with the Palestinian of course, since the trouble was started by the other one. Which rooted from ages ago thanks to that Balfour Declaration of British to grant the Jews a land. And why is that land has to be the Palestinians land may I ask? Of course, they've got this arranged btw them sometime before. Why don't give them some of your land in the other side of the world? You made that promise at the expense of others land which is just unreasonable and irresponsible.

In a nutshell, what I've said above is sourced from the internet. From wiki and twitter and yahoo answer. I know I could trust the source cause they have link to that ultimate source. Phew, what a complex rooting of information. T_T . I think I've typed a tad too far from what I always write, isn't it? Hm, everything is so mixed up in our current world. Corruption is everywhere but one thing for sure, for us, the Moslem, world isn't the purpose of our life. We aren't afraid to die in our God's cause because for us that is a holy sacred mission and accomplishment! All of us want that! Note to you that grotesque images you see in fb and whatnot are all the opposites when we see it in the hereafter. The blood bath will become a fragrant bed of flowers and enthrallment you have never imagine. And also, worldly life isn't the real life for us. World is just like a pit stop at the highway, in the journey to meet our Lord. InsyaAllah. :)

Khamis Hari yang Bahagiaaaa....

Assalamualaikum..... la la la la la ~~

Hatiku riang sekali hari ini haha. Sebab esok cuti! Yezza! Alas, earlier today wasn't a good start, nevertheless we faced it steady and cool, bro.

Nak dijadikan citer, pagi tadi takde air! Oh mannn how can you be liddis, water? I got class you know. So I went to my friend's house to siap-siap whatever then off we go to the class. I wore tudung sarung okeh hari ini dipadankan dgn jubah. Easy. And fast. Atau nama lain dia, fashion kecemasan haha. XD

Anyway, cuti tahun ni dah dimansuhkan kepada sehari saje unlike last sem, third year students dapat cuti 2 hari. Aku redha hajela memburuhkan otak aku ni. Bagus jugak kena paksa study lama-lama ni kan, berfikir tentang manusia, kurang sikit risiko nak dapat Alzheimer (nyanyuk), iye dok. InsyaAllah. Nak diikutkan study medic kat Malaysia sangat tough tahu tak, dengan cutinya yang pendek tu. Cuti diorang paling lama 3 minggu je (sumber: dua pupu) hei dah lama aku selim kalau study kat local uni weih. But it's good tough to be slimmer XD

So, dah tamatlah minggu pertama kelas kat sini. Kelas semua 2 jam je hari-hari utk minggu pertama ni. Okaylah. Penat jugak sebab dah lama cuti kan. Ni kasi panas enjin dulu ar kiranya.

Oh, pasal rumah pulak, semua dah settle. Pasal bil haritu, aku mintak nak tengok resit bayaran tu then dia bagi lah. Okay. But one thing la, diorang ni memang tak organized betul. Resit semua bergumpal aje dlm laci. Patutnya kalau dah tahu ada penyewa, simpanlah bahan bukti tu elok-elok, in case penyewa nak tengok kan, ini dengan tertumpah air kopi ke hape ntah atas resit tu aku nak pegang pun guna hujung hujung kuku je. T_T
Wasn't that satisfied by the receipt though tapi nak argue lelebih aku sedar diri la vocab masih hijau lagi. Kalau nak argue kena ada ilmu, ye tak. Barulah argue dengan maruah. Kalau tak orang tu pun malas nak layan nanti sebab cakap macam errr bayi?

Tapi aku sempat bagi sedas kat dia. I said right into his eyes that 'I trust you!' Hahaha konon menakutkan sangat ah pandangan kau mata dah la sepet wei haha. Then dia reply  'No no no, we fear Allah and Allah sees us, something like that la, so aku pun okay fine. Lepas ni kitorang kena bayar bil sendiri. Phew lega aku. Tak best jugak asyik nak gaduh jumpa ngan Arab ni. Baik kita develop ikatan persaudaraan ngan diorang. Sempat lagi adik tuan rumah aku ni 'Do your friends bring any teas from Malizia? I want Malizia tea.' Yang lagi sorang tu 'Fen hadeyya min Malizia?' (mana hadiah dari Malaysia?) Amboi pakcik. Hahaha. I guess I'll fried some fish chips for them. :)

Pastu haritu mama depan rumah ni marah pulak kite letak sampah kat luar. Sebenarnye takpe je letak kat luar because we paid the caretaker to bring the rubbish down, but itu lah die. Itu lah. Mama depan rumah tu doesn't like rubbish in front of her house. Dia kata 'I become very nervous when I see rubbish'. Ewah. Esoknya, aku selamba je tekan doorbell dia. I dunno where on earth did the courage come from but aku nak pergi minta maaf kat dia face to face, formally. It turned out, she was overwhelmed kot sebab aku mintak maaf sungguh-sungguh, dia pun mintak maaf jugak sebab marah semalam. Comel..... Haha. Itulah datangnya ayat I become nervous tu semua. Haha.

See, everything happens for reasons. Turn the problem into chances, okay. Kemain lah aku ni chances lah bagai, tapi itulah dia, itulah. Hihi. Untuk pengajaran dan ingatan aku di masa akan datang jugak.

“Sesungguhnya orang-orang mukmin itu adalah saudara-mara. Oleh itu damaikanlah di antara saudara-mara kamu dan bertaqwalah kepada ALLAH agar kamu dikurniakan rahmat”

(al-Hujurat:10)

For one who knows and understands, it becomes easy for them to forgive and forget. Because nothing stay permanent but perish in the world. And nothing keeps you company in hereafter but yourself.  InsyaAllah. Keep praying so we'll be able to do what we shall do when the time we are put under the test comes.

Wassalam. :)

Just my 'satu ringgit' on songs

Listening to songs, it could make you go all excited, anxious, emotional and whatnot. So there goes the goods and bads of songs.

Good is when you suddenly feel a vehement empowerment due to powerful encouragement contained in a song. Like the song 'Adakah Kau Lupa'. That song is dedicated to all Muslims around the globe actually to spark our awareness.

While bad comes by with the kind of Adele. Haha, wait I didn't say she's bad. She is very excellent indeed that her songs really turn on this switch of sadness and blues in my limbic system all of a sudden.

The music itself is enough to make you drift along going all dreamy and wishful and so on and so forth. Sometimes, the lyrics is far from being upsetting but the music still make you feel like crying. Now that's the irony of these songs we hear everyday.

Hey I wonder who is the first human to find pleasure in sound? How did they combine the art of voice and music in the first place? Who is the man that cherish our current developing  music and entertainment industry? Who is the one responsible for every teens stucking in earphone in their ears now?

But hey hey wake up! Wake up!

Don't take those emotions seriously okay. It's just a song anyway. Unless it's a good emotion.

Anyhow.

Would be even better to hear the beautiful, natural sounds made in heaven by our Utmost Wise God, right.
Like the sounds of waterfall, continuous rhythm of waves, ripples of water, heavy downpour, the lightning, the night creatures, the birds chirping, the leaves slapping each other, the gushes of wind, the volcanoes explosion (?) and the list goes on and on.

I miss going to places like beach and waterfall. The serenity and peace God made for us. Cause deep inside us, we always yearn for harmony and tranquility. Hustle and bustle of life stress everyone's life, making us like mad zombies sometimes. At least to some people they do. To me, who is currently mentally and physically dormant, safe at home I am soooooo at a peace of mind state. HAHA.

Everyday, waking up to house chores and laptop I am. Hehe. Whatever it is, be happy. You own your heart.  No one could make you feel anything, unless you allow them to. Cause your heart belongs to you, given by God.

Trivia:
Was hearing to Adele (Make You Feel My Love) just now and it perturbs my limbic system eventhough the lyrics isn't the slightest bitter which leads to this entry. The music does it job well, I think. I'm okay now.

Ramadhan Kareem

Mood: Undefined

Menulis belog dlm keadaan undefined ni adalah berbahaya. Entahlah. Rasa kosong cuti ni.

Astaghfirullah. I indeed know very well myself, where does all these come from.

I need to change. Everything.

For the sake of myself. My future. My life.

Ewahhh. Serious pulak ekau ni. HIHIHI. Malam ni dah start tarawih and sahur!

Orang kat Mesir dah start puasa dah kan. Selamatlah kepada semuanya. :)

Okeh dah happy balik. Fadzli is coming home tonight. Yay!

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Aku berazam Ramadhan kali ni perlu lebih produktif! Lebih banyak outcome. I shall keluar dari bulan Ramadhan dengan keadaan yg lebih baik daripada sebelum ni. Ramadhan datang sekali setahun. Yg tak tahu sama ada tahun depan boleh jumpa lagi atau tak. People might question, what with the seriousness ni? We are still young! We have plenty of time ahead!

You're right! (sarcastic).

Tahun ni kat facebook, ramai betul orang baya-baya aku meninggal. Accident, leukimia, you name it. Takut seh. Takutkan nak mati. T_T

Kamu takut tak?
Amalan kamu dah cukup tak?

Huhu, tepuk dada tanya iman.

Okey, selamat beribadah bulan Ramadhan ni. Dimana semua amalan dilipatgandakan pahalanya.

''Ya Allah, please bless us with a productive Ramadhan. Bless us, our family, persons around us, and the ummah too. May the journey through this Ramadhan is always guided by your taufiq and hidayah.''

 Aminn. :)

The One I Look Up To

Last year, I was down with this killer toothache before doing the root canal treatment. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I would be woken up by the pain. It was a pure agony and a form of torture, seriously. You know how they say toothache is one of the most painful pains you could ever face? Yeah, it is. I've been there.

So, in those final days of Ramadhan, we were back in kampung to celebrate Hari Raya. There was one night, I was awakened from sleep due to the throbbing pain, and I went up searching for my mom. I need panadol! Or any NSAIDs available. She asked me to search in my grandmother's room so I went there.

And I saw someone.

It affects me well. It changed the way I want to be in future. I looked up to him more that I saw him doing something very memorable that night.

My paternal grandmother couldn't walk by herself, even now. So, there, I saw my eldest brother was accompanying my grandmother to the toilet. He escorted my grandmother, while holding her tightly, walking her to the nearby toilet slowly and gently. I think he was alone then. I don't remember it vividly. But, my point  is, as everyone was sleeping soundly, he's the only one who's been up, helping my grandmother. That requires energy and patience. Handling old people is not easy you know. Children helping their parents is normal, but grandchildren taking care of their grandparents is rare. Don't you think so?

You know how some of us, felt awkward and shy to kiss our mum and dad in front of other people? He teaches me never to be one. He would hug and kiss Mak and Abah like it's nobody's bussiness, in airport and during raya. And thanks to his attitude, I learn from that. I mean, it's not like who you are depends on who and how your siblings are, but they help in moulding yourself, though.  


I'm proud of him. Really. Even once upon a time, we were like cat and dog, but now he is the one I adore most. This might sounds cheesy and whatnot and I know he might be reading this, but hey you, I'm proud of you, bro! (smiley face) 


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I hope one day in the bright future, I would be able to take care of my parents despite the bizarre life ahead. Especially my mother because I am the only daughter she has while my father has 4 boys to boss around HEHE. On the day, they are not able to do something, I wish I'm going to be the one who would make them able to. I pray for that, insyaAllah. 


I want to serve them the way they had served me when I was a demanding baby, a difficult child, a demanding youth again and so on. In fact, I want to serve them even more. I hope and I pray to be one 'anak solehah' for them, insyaAllah. :) 


Note 1: Suddenly felt like writing this. I guess I miss my family too much and no, I'm not crying while typing this. And no, my brother didn't tip me for telling you this. Teehee. It's just something I want to share with you guys. 


Note 2: I'm forever grateful for everything and everyone Allah has blessed me with. Yes, including my friends and the hot-tempered baba 'slash' owner of my Egypt house. I'll go with the saying, everything and everyone comes out in your life as a message either you realized it or not.  


Guess that's it. Till then. 

Current Lazy and Worrisome State

I dunno why but me is soooo lazy one today! Haiyaaa cannot liddis la weih, dear myself. Many people would switch place with you to read, you know that? I have well immunized state, free from any pathogens now, unlike some of your colleagues, so don't you know how to express gratitude to your God, huh?

Come on come on! Throw your laziness out of the window! Help the deen! 


Okayh...... Take a deep breath.........Exhaleeeeeee......Get new resolution....Put the earphone away and focus! And oh, shut the internet connection down. Now!

Hai Module 11

Assalamualaikum.

Eeee sebenarnye kan, aku dah lame betul nak update blog ni. Banyak benda nak aku citerkan di sini. Pasal Spain haritu, pasal jumpa 20 euro dlm kocek seluar, pasal baju tak basuh lagi, pasal teddy bear jatuh bawah katil dan benda-benda gedik yg seangkatan dengannya. Tapi. Tapi.

Aku dah masuk module baru ni. Cardiovascular System nama die. So, aku berhajat dan berazam utk menjadi rajin banyak lah. Sebab module CNS haritu, aku main main. Tapi takdela main sangat. Tapi hmmm susah nak aku gambarkan dgn kata-kata. Yg penting. CVS ni kena struggle sikit la sebab aku tahu tahap aku kat mana. So kalau aku nak capai target, (mcm ade target kehkeh) aku kene study hard. Untuk kepuasan diri sendiri jugak. So.

Sebab tu la, aku update tak update je blog ni. Sebab kengkadang bile update blog (aku pantang jumpa keyboard), buku study aku tu tak terupdate pulak. Jadi, aku rasa bersalah lah pada diri sendiri dan jugak pada buku aku tu sendiri. Kehkeh. Ish korang paham ke ape aku cakap ni? Tak kisahla.

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Lecture kali ni 3 jam straight lagi lah ayo makkkk punyelah aku taknak jumpa lagi lectures species ni, sekaliiiiii......ade lagi.....Tapi resmi orang belajar, kita yg kene carik cikgu. So dgn hati separuh masak, aku pun masuk lecture. Nasib baik ade Nabilah. HAHAHHA. Nabilah kena lagi.

Pagi tadi kan. Aku bukak fb aku. Sekali ade post adik aku. Gembira gembira! Hahah. Ko tahu die tulis ape?

hoi atiqah sahmah.. best gi spain?? ahhaa.. ade habuan x untuk aku yg slalu doakan ko kurus ni?? hahaha

Terbahak bahak aku ketawa pagi tadi. Memang ah budak sorang  ni nak kena ngan aku. Perlu ke die kate begitu? Cehhh. Ahmad Saherrrr, ko tengok adik ko ni haaa. HAHAH. 

Eishhh aku rindu ahhh ngan family aku. Hnssss hnsss. Nak balik! Cepat lah habisssss...

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Which brings me to the primary issue here; 

YOU STUDY HARD, YOU ANSWER EXAMS WELL, YOU CUTI LA NGAN TENANG DAN GEMBIREEEEE! 

Okeh, aku nak gi study. Kehkehkehh. 

Wassalam. 

P/S: Ada misi yg perlu dilaksanakan. Kena buktikan yg people like me also can! Yeahhhh tetibe keluar semangat naga. HAHA.

Hai Februari

Assalamualaikum kawan kawan! Huhu sopan betul anak siapakah ini? Huhi

Bulan februari telah datang. Yang sebenarnye daku tak menyedari waktu yg berlari atau bulan yg berganti sepanjang musim exam ni. Yang aku tahu "OMG, paper lagi 2 hari! Banyak tak habis baca lagi macam mana ni?!" Tapi aku tak tahu langsung berapa haribulan kah hari hari itu. Sedar-sedar Januari telah pergi membawa diri. Jumpa lagi tahun depan!

Eh apepasal lah bakar mercun kuat sangat bunyiknye ni?* Tiba tiba.

Sambung cerita. Aku macam ni lah. Masih dalam study leave. Menunggu dgn penuh sabar tarikh 13 Februari untuk mula bercuti winter break! Yeeehuuu! Paper CNS haritu memang mencabar keimanan sungguh la #wahabaqkatlu. Tapi yang telah berlalu itu biarlah berlalu. Fokus pada yg bakal mendatang. Kang sedihkan yg dulu, yg datang ni buat dek je padehal boleh score yg akan datang ni!

Haritu aku tengok video pekerja KFC gaduh dengan customer.

Agak kecewa aku di situ. Nampak sangat nilai sivik orang kita masih hijau. Tahu tapi tak amal. Ilmu tanpa amal tu ibarat pokok takda buah. Maksudnye tak berguna langsung untuk orang lain. Mungkin orang nampak die berilmu tapi die tak praktikkan apa yg die tahu. Ape pasal dah tahu taknak buat ek? Pelik la manusia ni.

Bukannya die tak tahu menengking orang boleh memalukan orang lain.

Bukannya die tak tahu pukul anak orang tu kejam.

Kalau die reti sabar sikit, ada sifat empati mesti tak jadi macam ni. Pada aku dua-dua pun salah. Sebab tak sabar, ikutkan perasaan sangat. Aku tengok ade foreigner dalam KFC tu. Ha itu lagi satu hal. Malu je orang luar tengok. Ye ye je dalam iklan tunjuk kita bersatu bagai, tapiiiii aih bergaduh jugak.

Pengajaran dari kisah ni adalah idiom "A hungry man is an angry man" is justified!
Telah dibuktikan oleh customer tu.

Aku rase kan mesti diorang malu ek. Pasal makan boleh bergaduh? Woahh! Sensitif betul orang kita ni. Orang kat Syria bergaduh pasal pemimpin. Orang kita?

So, anak-anak lepas ni, jangan ikutkan hati sangat lepas ni. Kalau nak marah, mesti nak kene jerit kat orang. Kalau geram je mesti nak pukul orang. Ehhh dunia ni Allah yang punya okeh. Ingat sikit! Tak boleh buat sesuka hati. Kita berkongsi so paham paham la.

Dan isu ni tak perlu lah nak dibesarkan lagi. Diorang bawak masuk isu perkauman pulak dah. Tengok tu. Kelakar kan orang kita ni. That's that dah la. Jangan nak tambahkan garam dalam cerita ni lagi. Betul tak? Malaysia is shared by all of us. So, be tolerant lah. Jangan jadi batu api. Sebarkan bahagia! Macam blog Ustazah Fatimah Syarha okeh. Kikiki.

Aku harap dengan ramainya anak-anak Malaysia yang belajar overseas ni makin baik lah generasi Malaysia akan datang ni. Yang belajar kat Malaysia pun ye jugak. Bila makin ramai orang terpelajar makin sikit lah orang yang nak bergaduh pasal benda kecik macam ni. Harapnya macam tu lah.

Because educated persons have more things to think rather than a chicken. Bangga 7 keturunan ayam tau kalau die tahu manusia gaduh sebab diorang. Eh malunya!

Ok dah. Aku nak jadi bangsa terpelajar. Doakan kitorang lulus cemerlang ye!

Duduk Bersama, Beriman Sebentar

Salam 'alaik dear earthlings!

Hehehhe (apesal gelak pun tatauuuu).

Ok tadi pagi kan, aku pegi sharing tau. Even terlambat pun kan. Nasib la, janji aku datang. Ok.

Tadi cerita pasal 'Ahammiyah tarbiyyah' atau Kepentingan Tarbiyah dlm bahase ibundanye kan. Akak yang bagi pengisian ni tadi seriusly awesome. Tak, die bukan student medic. Die student qira'at. Alaaa yang study pasal bacaan Al-quran tu. Ha, itu lah qiraat.

So, tadi kan, aku sangat bersyukur diberi peluang oleh Allah sebab dapat hadir dengar ilmu-ilmu baru dari akak tu. Ok, honestly. Aku bukan budak baik. As in, aku memang skema kat skolah dulu (I prefect okeh haha) tapi baik kat sini maksudnye acammm alahh ko tau la, pakai tudung labuh, cakap selow-selow. Ha, gitu kan. Aku ni kalau nak gi sharing adelah pemalas yg nombor satu. Sile tahu itu. Kengkadang aku pergi pun sebab taknak mengecewakan akak-akak tu kan. Tapi, well. Time changes. People pon. Bile Allah pancarkan sinaran hidayahh (amek tu ayat dieee ok serius), kite kene cepat-cepat amek.

Contoh.

Macam aku kengkadang nak taknak je pegi sharing. Skali, pagi tadi, aku ade ter'excited sikit lah kan. Biasela serotonin aku cam terbanyak sikit pagi tadi. So, aku pun nak pergi lah. Makanya, aku kene jugak pergi pagi tadi. Aku takboleh nak backoff tetibe. Sebab perasaan 'excited' ni (hidayah tu la) bukan selalu aku dapat! Pagi tadi je. And insyaAllah lepas ni juga. Ya Allah please give me the hidayah please please. Hehe.

Pehe dok? Dok pehe lagi, moh aku oyak se contoh lagi.

Macam aku terjaga tetengah malam. Tengok jam pukul 3:45 am. Dah terlintas dah nak qiam tu. Haaa, kene cecepat bangun dari  katil gi toilet amek wudhu'. Tapi biaselah, manusia kan....Aku selalu je macam tu. Memang akan tumpas dgn saratoga (blanket musim sejuk) punye la. Serius tak kuat. Do'ifffff (lemah) sesangat.

So, peringatan kpd diri aku. Jemput lah diri awak ke sejadah di tengah malam sebab sumber kekuatan seorang muslim tu dari qiamnye. Mama usrah saye pernah berkata (eceh mama) Saidina Umar, sangat risau kalau tentera Muslim tak buat qiyam memalam. Sebab kalau tak qiyam, tak kuat! Acane nak kalahkan kafirun (orang orang kafir)?

Justeru, NURUL ATIQAH ABU SAHMAH! Engko perlu sentiasa qiyam ye! InsyaAllahhhhh cik belog. Huhu.

Oh lupe pulak. Ni ha, ade sikit buah tangan utk antum (kamu-kamu) semua:

1.  Maksud tarbiyah itu ialah mendidik utk mengubah kpd yg positif.
2. Kite ni tak boleh sekadar beri arahan, tapi kene bagi contoh dulu takpun bawak orang tu selow-selow kpd perubahan yg baik. (takkan tetibe nampak orang, terus cakap 'hoi, pakai tudung la makcik! *Panggg kene tampar)
3. Kite ni tengah buat bisnes dgn Allah sebenarnye. Apa benda baik yg kite dapat atau tahu, kene share dgn org lain. Buat amalan sentiasa. Ehhhh nanti banyak pahala masuk akaun okehhh.
4. Berlapang dada dgn perbezaan pendapat. (Jangan nak menangkan point ko aje) Ada org panggil benda ni as 'meraikan kepelbagaian pendapat'. 
5. Islah nafsak wad'u ghairak. (Perbaiki dirimu dan serulah selainmu). Tak macho okey nak baik sengsorang je. 
6. We come from heaven, so we must go back to the heaven. 
7. Kerja dakwah ialah kerja Rasulullah. Put it in a way, we say; Kerja kita, kerja Rasulullah. Kite adalah colleague ok. 
8. Tarbiyah sampai hujung nyawa. (maksudnye, kite kene perbaiki diri sentiasa. Ajak orang buat baik sentiasa)

Ha, tu je la insyaAllah. Ish, aku cuak ah tulis perkara-perkara macam ni. Yelah, aku ni siapalah sangat. Bukan  Nabilah Yunus HAHAHAHHA saje je nak bahan Nabilah. Jangan marah ea, Nabilah. Kidding only. 

Tapi, ini praktikal aku yg pertama. Testing testing. Apa yg aku dapat tadi, aku nak citer lah kat sini. Sesapa yg dah terbaca atau memang suka baca, nasib lah. Die pun dapat ilmu baru. Bertambah akaun pahala aku. Ewahhhh sedap berangan kan. InsyaAllah ea. Moh sama-sama ajak oghe kapung ghama-ghama tarbiyah diri dan orang sekeliling! (eh sorry la, lupe pulak aku ni Johor ok, Johor)

Sekian, mekasih. Esok ade skill lab buat CPR! Kan aku dah kate, cuti macam tak cuti je. Nasib badan lah kan. 

Ok peace. 

Selamat malam. Gudnyte everybadeh. Tidur gosok gigi ok. Tetibe. 

Wassalam. May Allah bless you, my friends!