Talking about our future.

Salam 'alaik.

Believe it or not, I had just done watching video. Political videos precisely.

Oh my goodness.

What with the curse words all around? I doubt our dearest Prophet Muhammad ever said just one bad word to the other side. Hmmmm.

Or has cursing become the new synonym of politic? Duhh

Both sides are the same, really. Should really watch our tongue yaw. Everytime. Your choice of words reflect your own self.

Was just watching and observing. For now, I judge from their language.

This year I would be voting if I were born earlier in January. Sadly, I am a November baby, so yeah 2018 will be my first time voting (I would be an MO by that year). Just thinking of it gives me goosebumps. Duhhh. (26 years old had once seems so far away you know).

So, to all voters out there, choose the right one. The one who could not only develop the country but benefit ALL the people as well. Who could provide a better future for the next generation and nurture them to be a holistic generation. Who are 'filled' inside and outside. For I believe the inner strength of oneself is more powerful and it's the core of an individual. If the core is well, it will radiates only goodness and proven by the outer self. In sha Allah.

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Today, I finished my last professional skills exam for preclinical. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. :) Now the study leave for GIT shall start. And I shall be burying my head deep inside the book. No, books. Like bookssssssss and yeah you got it, right.

''Life is when Allah decides to bless you with a chance to enter His jannah.''

 paraphrased from Hilal Asyraf.

K, toodles. :)
Ma'a salaamah.

Perasaan kena tipu

Ok, now I am so fed up with my house owner and his brother. When I gave a second thought, they have been conspiring against us all along, They are a bunch of bully demanding piles of money from us, the so called lavish Malizi which is not true. Those are not our money okay.

First about the house rent during last summer break. Supposed when we were not in the house, there shouldn't be any bills coming in, right. But they demanded 100 LE per month at that time. And we gave him.

Then about the lift maintenance. They were collecting money from everyone in the flat including us. It was 1200LE per house at first but after negotiating we got it down until 700LE. And we gave him.

And now for the umpteenth time, they want 400LE pulak for water tank maintenance on the roof. They claimed this time it is once for all time. Like an investment in future. If you pay this thing now, then there will be no water issue for the next 20 years. He did said 20 years, I'm not making it up okay.
And the *&^%%$$ thing is that after the repairing was done, the water in our toilet wouldn't come out from the pipe. Like seriously 20 years?! This is your frigging claimed 20 years?!
Then, we asked them to call the plumber to repair our pipe. We asked him for a month and yes you guess it right, the plumber never came. The house owner's brother told me, the plumber himself didn't show up. He kept repeating bukrah (tomorrow) and ba'din bukrah (After tomorrow) for like thousands times.

And not until yesterday only I was told, actually the house owner is the one who is responsible to pay for all the maintenance fees of his house not the current people residing inside the house! He is the Egyptian, he should know better than us about the house rules! And yet he has eaten up our money. It's not the money I'm concerned most with but, these people, they are muslims, how could they cheat another muslims just like that? Where is that sense of brotherhood in their community? I know brotherhood is easy to instill when you are similar, but with foreign people its hard! But still, Islam teaches us to keep being good to everyone not just with your own frigging buddy. Duhhhh.

Phuh, I think my blood pressure is rocketing up to 90/140 mmHg typing emotionally like this. Haha but this is the fact.

Never. Let. Anyone. In. Your. Family. Study. Here. In. Egypt. 

Unless he doesn't mind dealing with uncivilized people like my house owner and his brother. I'm sorry if there happens to be some english-speaking Egyptian who reads my humble blog but I think that's like an 'impossibrurity', like 0.0001% in probability. I'm not generalizing. It's just most of them are. And dealing with these flocks are the most adventurous, patience-testing, sadistic moment you could possibly face ever in the whole wide world. Like no joke. Seriously.

While most of the Egyptians could raise your blood pressure, there is nevertheless some of them who are still having that good nature inside their heart. Yeah, but I think the ratio is not balanced at all. XD. Maybe I'm saying this because I am currently unstable in terms of emotion.  But I did find and bumped into beautiful examples shown by them now and then. Like for example, the other day, while I was walking through the shops, there was this one ragged old man. He was praying at the narrow pavement of a shop, next to hundreds of busy legs passing by him. The weather was cold and rainy and there he was doing his 'sujud' to the Rabb on a piece of flattened chipsy box. Chipsy is the famous junk food here anyway. I was really touched by the old man. He reminds me to perform 'salat' anywhere, anytime and in any conditions you are in. To take your 'salat' seriously. Cause it is the time to please your God, to show your gratitude to Him for blessing your whole day. T_____T May Allah bless the old man.

Ok. That's all. I know this post is like typed with an overwhelming hatred but I just need to pour it here. I am so gonna move out of this building! You go ask money from the wall and from the lift themselves!

You're a bit harsh, doc.

Salam 'alaik.

Hey, I was revising my module just now when yeah, my mind started to roam around and diverted into something else. Like usual. Hehe.

So what was I thinking just now? Hm, I thought to pen it here cause it was a good and kind of dramatic to be read again sometime later in life.

The story goes like this:

During our practical exam for Endocrine System, there were 2 parts of exam to be taken, first was the Physio and the other was questions in the form of spots in the lab. Both were conducted in seperate venue. The Physio was in our lecture hall where we were given slides on projector and there you go. After finishing the Physio, my friends and I decided to revise some more on Histo, Patho, Anat and whatnot cause we had like 3 hours gap before the exam started again. Due to congested areas and classes being full of students we decided to sit on the floor at quite an isolated hallway. With some other female students.

So there we were, sitting on the floor with our labcoat on revising, questioning each other like a total excellent students. Then, came a lecturer. A male doctor. With his sunglasses on. Mind you we were at the end of an obscured hallway with a just nice sun light. He approached us and began his lecture.

''During my time, as a student, I never could bring myself to sit on the floor. You know because I have dignity and it doesn't allow me to do so.''

I was a bit taken aback by his remarks, a cruel remarks to be precise, so I started to ask my friends to go somewhere else and avoid him from continuing his speech. My other other friends didn't move an inch but I really couldn't stand him anymore. Haha. I am that sensitive, yes. When I was about to stand and go away, the lecturer stopped me and said 'No, no don't go, I was just saying blah blah blah' but yeah I was so full of loath, hatred and ego, my brain blocked me from listening to his words any further. So I just smiled at him and walked away like a boss. Hahaha.

We went to a better classroom, a bit full, so I had to ask a very gentleman friend of mine to move to other benches so that we could have his seats. He moved. Alhamdulillah. :) Now that I have that seat, I was able to compose myself and calm down a bit. You can say that I am until now still affected by his words. More to I couldn't believe someone so educated could bring himself to say such nasty things. So egoistic. And so full of pride. Which is not good for your life and society.

Later on, when we were on our way to go to practical lab, I bumped into that lecturer again. Like seriously? Haha. I know my patience was just tested by God. I was like 'Cool down, babe, just smile at him'. And so I did. Though only God knows what kind of tornado was going on inside. Hahaha.

It was a great lesson actually. To know that not all of our lecturers are that nice. Some of them are well, a bit harsh. And I was told, more of the harsh ones are the ones teaching in the hospitals, for the clinical students. So, yeah to myself, be very prepared for whatever cruel remarks and be a bit ignorant to whatever bitter words they are about to give you later on. :) Just keep the positive ones, okay. To the above lecturer, I am sorry, but I really couldn't extract a single positive things from what you told me earlier. :) And yeah I did remember my first class with you was during first year and all I can say is you have always been like that. I wish you good and nice days ahead, doc! :)

Rambles on Holiday

Assalamualaikum.

Okay, tonight, I'm gonna rant about anything. So expect a tsunami of words and 'HAHAHA' and anything. Cause yeah, anything. Like yeah, anything. Okay, I'm being super saiya-ly annoying here. So, moving on to first point. 

MPH Online;

Recently I've ordered some books (3 books) from MPH Online. It says I will get the books in 3-5 working days time. I ordered them on 7th August and today is already 15th August. Exactly the 5th working days after 7th August. I've been very obedient coming out (covering every aurah possible) everyday to check the mailbox to see if anything has arrived but up to this day, I've been up to a total, big, humongous disappointment! Haiyoh, hurry up la weih! I've emailed them though about that. Hopefully, my books will turn up in the mailbox tomorrow. Please please please kamu jangan nakal MPH!!.

Of driving;

For the record, I've been very annoying to pester my dad on how the car is too big for me to drive (please, don't say I'm being riya' cause I just wanna story-tell you here). Yelah, I graduated from Berjaya Driving School (I'm not that 'Berjaya' anyway), driving a Kancil only, but suddenly I'm faced with a huge and gigantic 4WD which of course disturbed me in every way you could imagine. Okay, there's not much need for me to drive actually, but but but, sometimes I did wish badly I could drive. When my grandmother was here, I wished I can take her to shopping sayur and barang dapur in Tesco wherever la because she likes it. But, yeah, I am 'crippled' like that, pity me eh, up to the level, I even thought of hiring a driver. HAHAHA. True story, I'm laughing at myself!

But now, worry no more. 

Came a day (I've forgotten the date) when I felt so motivated to drive, thanks to a friend. He said I have to give it a try, break the wall, the scaredy-cat me or any obstacles that keeps me from driving. So, I asked my dad to keep me company to somewhere. Well, we started in Taman Sutera cause normally the traffic is not as heavy as in the main road. So, we drove around and around (around around nak termuntah jugak sebab cuak sangat!). I managed to drive from Taman Sutera to bazaar Perling Mall to home. Along the way, I did took a U-turn which was verrrrrry daring of me (phewh berpeluh haku), crossed a junction and side-parked quite cacat-ly but hey I managed to bring us home, unscathed, Alhamdulillah. HAHAHAA The happiest, the most bangga-able moment, the most ujub moment I felt when I finally reached home! It was indescribable! Such a victory! Like I was freed from an unexplained prison I made myself. Alhamdulillah. 

But I didn't forget, everything goes back to Him. Thanks to Him cause He protects me, put the courage inside me, blesses me with a patient father, so on and so forth. 

Now that I can drive (InsyaAllah), I'm gonna use it wisely. One of my friend once told me, she learnt how to drive because it would be easier for her to bring adik-adik to jaulah, go to usrah etc. The point is, her niat when driving is for God. I was totally gobsmacked, right at the heart! The power of niat and sincere tazkirah. I hope I'm giving benefits with this newfound ability and it wouldn't be a great embarrassment anymore to change my P (probationary) license to a competent one. Teehee.

Points to Ponder:

I realized that at some level of our live, we are faced with obstacles, a great uncertainty which could make you feel so down, so inferior, so low self-esteem. But, to my new discovery, it all depends on yourself to remain at that place, remain a coward, or to run away from those negativities, to break the wall, jump over it, and head to freedom. Because this is life. You feel, you learn, you apply, you decide, you anything!

Sidenotes:

But the most daring one from my siblings would be my youngest brother la aka Mur the Jemmy. (nama kena merah sebab dia nakal!) HAHAH. He's safely home now. He arrived today during sahur and is early for Raya holiday cause he skipped school in an illegal way. Students staying in hostel call this manner as 'fly'. Yeah, he flew back to his nest. HAHA his story is too long to jot in this entry. Maybe next time. Up to today, he has received 3 phone calls from his teachers for this bad bad job. All I can say is create a big 'network' cause they might or always save you! Hehe.

Ramadhan almost comes to its end. Let's grab the opportunity!! (hello hello myself). 

Wassalam. ;)

Hai Februari

Assalamualaikum kawan kawan! Huhu sopan betul anak siapakah ini? Huhi

Bulan februari telah datang. Yang sebenarnye daku tak menyedari waktu yg berlari atau bulan yg berganti sepanjang musim exam ni. Yang aku tahu "OMG, paper lagi 2 hari! Banyak tak habis baca lagi macam mana ni?!" Tapi aku tak tahu langsung berapa haribulan kah hari hari itu. Sedar-sedar Januari telah pergi membawa diri. Jumpa lagi tahun depan!

Eh apepasal lah bakar mercun kuat sangat bunyiknye ni?* Tiba tiba.

Sambung cerita. Aku macam ni lah. Masih dalam study leave. Menunggu dgn penuh sabar tarikh 13 Februari untuk mula bercuti winter break! Yeeehuuu! Paper CNS haritu memang mencabar keimanan sungguh la #wahabaqkatlu. Tapi yang telah berlalu itu biarlah berlalu. Fokus pada yg bakal mendatang. Kang sedihkan yg dulu, yg datang ni buat dek je padehal boleh score yg akan datang ni!

Haritu aku tengok video pekerja KFC gaduh dengan customer.

Agak kecewa aku di situ. Nampak sangat nilai sivik orang kita masih hijau. Tahu tapi tak amal. Ilmu tanpa amal tu ibarat pokok takda buah. Maksudnye tak berguna langsung untuk orang lain. Mungkin orang nampak die berilmu tapi die tak praktikkan apa yg die tahu. Ape pasal dah tahu taknak buat ek? Pelik la manusia ni.

Bukannya die tak tahu menengking orang boleh memalukan orang lain.

Bukannya die tak tahu pukul anak orang tu kejam.

Kalau die reti sabar sikit, ada sifat empati mesti tak jadi macam ni. Pada aku dua-dua pun salah. Sebab tak sabar, ikutkan perasaan sangat. Aku tengok ade foreigner dalam KFC tu. Ha itu lagi satu hal. Malu je orang luar tengok. Ye ye je dalam iklan tunjuk kita bersatu bagai, tapiiiii aih bergaduh jugak.

Pengajaran dari kisah ni adalah idiom "A hungry man is an angry man" is justified!
Telah dibuktikan oleh customer tu.

Aku rase kan mesti diorang malu ek. Pasal makan boleh bergaduh? Woahh! Sensitif betul orang kita ni. Orang kat Syria bergaduh pasal pemimpin. Orang kita?

So, anak-anak lepas ni, jangan ikutkan hati sangat lepas ni. Kalau nak marah, mesti nak kene jerit kat orang. Kalau geram je mesti nak pukul orang. Ehhh dunia ni Allah yang punya okeh. Ingat sikit! Tak boleh buat sesuka hati. Kita berkongsi so paham paham la.

Dan isu ni tak perlu lah nak dibesarkan lagi. Diorang bawak masuk isu perkauman pulak dah. Tengok tu. Kelakar kan orang kita ni. That's that dah la. Jangan nak tambahkan garam dalam cerita ni lagi. Betul tak? Malaysia is shared by all of us. So, be tolerant lah. Jangan jadi batu api. Sebarkan bahagia! Macam blog Ustazah Fatimah Syarha okeh. Kikiki.

Aku harap dengan ramainya anak-anak Malaysia yang belajar overseas ni makin baik lah generasi Malaysia akan datang ni. Yang belajar kat Malaysia pun ye jugak. Bila makin ramai orang terpelajar makin sikit lah orang yang nak bergaduh pasal benda kecik macam ni. Harapnya macam tu lah.

Because educated persons have more things to think rather than a chicken. Bangga 7 keturunan ayam tau kalau die tahu manusia gaduh sebab diorang. Eh malunya!

Ok dah. Aku nak jadi bangsa terpelajar. Doakan kitorang lulus cemerlang ye!

Berserabut!

Kepala aku berserabut. Esok aku kene beli sikat rumput tu untuk sikat otak aku bagi terurus semula. Wah, gila seram aku nih. Tapi seriously, aku perlu seorang driver! Ni pikir nak kahwin awal ni. Kahhh senang ade orang jage tak payah nak pikir banyak hal. Boleh tak? Hahahah??? Gila!

Tak, maksud aku, sekarang ni aku geram ngan aku sebab taknak drive kereta. Kalau aku MAHU drive, segala masalah aku ni takkan timbul dan wujud! Maksud aku, aku adelah geram kenapa aku tak teror macam abang aku? Eiiiiii geramnye kite!!!

Ok bye.

Isu Berbangkit Bila Study Group

Assalamualaikum guys and girls.

Tengahari yang terik, Alhamdulillah masih ada rumah untuk berteduh. Huhu, ayat intro tak boleh blah dah start dah.

Pape la.

Starting dari minggu lepas, semua orang kena join study group. AJK Akademik batch yang aturkan dan susun siapa jadi ketua dan siapa jadi anak buah. Macam biasa tengok result first sem. Pastu entah macam mana nama aku boleh naik sekali jadi ketua study group. Man, aku tak harap jadi ketua sebab kan sebab aku tahu ape pasal nama aku boleh sesat naik atas. Sebab nye modul 1 aku punya markah agak tinggi thus menaikkan overall percentage aku. Kalau nak ikutkan modul 2 ngan 3 aku biasa-biasa je wei, tak tipu tau. Pastu aku rasa rendah diri ngan anak buah aku sebab diorang sebenarnya sama level je ngan aku.

Aku dapat anak buah yang baik-baik dan ngam dengan aku Alhamdulillah syukur ya Allah. Tapi aku kesian kat kawan aku sorang ni. Yeah you know issues pasal study group ni. Macam-macam boleh berlaku kalau kau bernasib 'terlalu baik' dan end up dengan anak buah yang 'pandai' dan suka 'tunjuk pandai' dan suka potong cakap orang. Wah wah wah kak, apa kata kau aje la yang ambik alih study group itu.

Wait, wait. Aku merepek pasal apa ni. Emmm how to start ea. Like this.

A is anak buah and she knows about anastomosis of elbow joint. B is the group leader and she is about to explain the anastomosis of elbow joint. But macam biasa B akan bagi intro 'Kita-try-ajar-awak-semua-kalau-kita-salah-cakap-tolong-betulkan' out of humbleness. (Man, your teacher never teach you about being modest ea?). Suddenly, A cakap "Hey, I rasa I boleh ajar this part la'' dengan muka excited dan semangat gila padahal si B dah siap pegang pensel ngan kertas A4 dah. 

Nampak tak A buat apa? A baru sahaja memotong dan memintas cakap B. Sedangkan B tahu la dia nak cakap and explain apa. B saje nak humble. Tapi A anggap B tak tahu apa-apa langsung. Dan dia suka sangat ajar orang. Memang la awak ajar best tapi kalau everytime awak nak ajar, group leader awak tu siapa? Malu gila kalau aku jadi si B ni. Dah la mulut A tu takda insurans. You treat everyone macam la orang lain kurang pandai sangat. Orang lain tu semuanya tahu jugak cuma diorang modest je okay. Janganla ingat awak pandai sangat. Haiya.

Dan sometimes, kita tak perlu lah nak cakap kat ahli study group yang lain. 'I know this, I know that. I can teach you guys about this'  setiap masa. Hello, orang tak tanya pun awak tahu ke tak benda tu. Yang lain pun tahu je benda yang awak cakap tu cuma diorang tak membongkak macam awak, tahu? Kan lebih baik kalau awak dah tahu benda yang sedang dibincangkan tu, awak dengar je la leader nak explain macam mana pastu kalau nak tambah pape, cakap je la dengan nada nak berkongsi bukan nada nak menunjuk pandai. Ha, kan sejuk hati member lain. Hati leader pun sejuk je macam tu. Ini tak. Cakap macam kau sorang je lah yang tahu pasal that thing.

Annoying gila sangat la.....Tapi kan, kalau korang berada dalam situasi ni, korang nak buat apa? Aku tak berada dalam situasi ni tapi aku kesian sangat tengok kawan sendiri kena macam tu. Kalau aku kan. Aku cakap kat groupmate;

'Sorry guys, tomorrow I tak boleh join sebab tomorrow I nak pergi Fathalla. Pastu lusa I nak pergi bank. Tulat pulak, I nak pergi Carrefour. So you guys selamat good luck lah belajar ngan A ni ok?' Sambil pandang tepat kat muka A tu. Cukup sarkastik tak?Yes,  biar dia terasa. But hell no I never do this to kawan-kawan. Aku bukan rebel depan-depan orangnya. Hey, aku tiba-tiba rasa a very rebellious friend would be useful sekarang untuk bersemuka dengan A ni.

Aku selfish gila kan. Tapi nasib la. Aku rasa kalau aku kat tempat B tu, memang terkubur mati jawapan muktamadnya study group tu. Aku memang takda masa nak layan orang perasan pandai macam tu. Baik aku buat group lain. Duhh, kesiannya. Aku rasa kalau boleh buat study group pilih ahli sendiri, mesti takda orang nak ngan A. Hahahha. Ye aku tahu aku sedang kutuk orang. Tapi jauh di sudut hati aku doakan dia lebih sensitif lepas ni terhadap perasaan kawan-kawan lain. Kita hidup bermasyarakat kan. Jadi, hati orang lain kena jaga. Penting tu. Kalau takda orang suka kita, memang susah gila. Nak mintak tolong kat siapa nanti? Kat kucing?

Semoga engkau lebih sensitif lepas ni, sahabat.